BlUe ScOrP!!

helo. Im jiawei:)

2010-10-06T01:36:00.002+08:00

ITsme
Hello!! To jiawei, fromj jiawei. :))
insomnia nite, lyk, agn:(( therefore i ve decided to post sth for myself:)) im juz too bored. Lyk for e entire day, meh. Bored. Wells. Wad shud i post to myself?? Lyk....hi, u r such a loser? Or lyk, hi..when r u getting diet?? Meh. Jk. I sucks.

well well. This is the first time i blog using this freaking small qwerty keypad on my fone, my hand, or to say phalanges are super pain. And i practically cant be bothered to chk my spelling and stuff. Juz typing, lyk free flow:) whee. Toking to myself is so much fun, and so stressless. I'm awesome. Tt song rocks rite!! I kinda get wad he meant. :)) smart samrt.

die...im runnig out of tpoic to tok abt. Lets tok abt how excited it is tt sch gona reopen. And tt im so gona grad 2.5yrs down e road. And im so gona get my degree w honours. So rite. With my freaking useless bird brain. Im so gona make it. Cut it off man. Dun joke me mann. I noe it juz too well:))

Yeah!! Sch gona start! Im so freaking excited!! Heee. Im serious. So excited. I wanna see how i flunk my sem2!! How much fun is tt gona be!! Cant wait to see:)) i rocks! Total future predictor. Yeah!!

To end off...i love jiawei. Coz she sucks big time lyk me.
Awesome!

to my dear dear!!

2010-09-05T11:59:00.002+08:00

ITsme

hello!! miss u sooo much!! =))

those time when we go eat...at xin wang RESTURANT, jap food court, amk market, marina food court....and nevertheless prata!! <3 heheee.

wait for ur illness to recover then we go eat durian k?? so mux quickly recover hor!! <3

im so looking forward to go zoo next wee~k!! i wan2 see turtle!! beside my turtle *><* hug my turtle and =P

wan2 watch grown ups?? it seems to be nice show, my bro watched ytd on his comp =DD hehee.

loves
jiawei
miss u so much
take care of ur throat, k??

these 2 days...

2010-08-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

ITsme

woohoo..hahaa. i almost forget abt this blog, and let it die agn><

so lazy to type. =)) wells. i decided to kip this alive, at least for my holiday. so i will on my comp to do report!! awesome rite?! oh man.

ytd is such a lousy day, but today seems to be a good day. good?? not good enuff. beta words? i will use..=DD

i learn so much from clinicals..btw. i learn tt in this line, it is definitely not only abt working alone. its abt working well w ur partner, giving each other trust in their skill, and helping each other cover up each other flaws. definitely, teaching each other new techniques, findings and sharing things we ve observed and learnt. cool rite!! its gona be a long way for me in this industry. so noob and green. i shud be more humble. i muz remind myself of tt. humble is the key to learning. cocky is the last thing i wan2 get. *REMIND~ =))

wells. polyclinic is terribly busy. it totally burn my energy!! so tired. and today i had to go teach tuition. haiz. tired tired. haha. nevertheless. the kid is so funny. and beat me =.=ll how i wish..rawr! oops. nth nth. im so gona draw on him next lesson!! PERMANENT MARKER!! hehee ^^

once agn. i failed his oral. its terrible. but i gave him the ideal ans, and ask him read it and stuff. next lesson im gg to test him agn. hopefully w the help of the ans, he can do it beta. good rite =)　soon, i gona giv him a compo test le. im gg to start tnking how i am gg to mark his essay. so hard to gauge. aiyoyo..头痛！！

lu la la~
JiaWei 25Aug2010
take care!!

TRAUMA!!

2010-08-23T20:32:00.002+08:00

ITsme

ahhh!! first day at polyclinic! its total TRAUMA!! ahh!! nonsense!! this is really the literally, free labour!! hahahaa. din really learn anot dere. afterall, i ve learnt most of the nid to noe things in CGH! hehee. i stil love tt place see! hee.

but nevertheless, its polyclinic, its a place whr i see alot of diff patients, tt are v diff from those lying in beds, in CGH. this patients are in pain, tt are neither too bad, nor good. so they oso damn ke lian! wad can i do? do wdv the doc request lor. haix.

apparently, i wanted today to be my observation day, juz see wad ppl do. den in the end, i oso dunno whyi started taking all the request form and do all the x rays. damn awesome! hahhaa. its amazing!! hehee. the radiographer din noe tt we were only taught upper extremities. hehee. i did lyk weight bearing knees, lyk KUB, lyk ABD, lyk feet toes, lumber spine..all the rubbish stuff. finally got extremities, den she say i cant do competency!! i wanna cry!! waste my whole day nia~ ah ah ah!!!

wells. afternoon this noob chinaradiographer came in! i wanted to kill her! she is a total waste of my time! oh my! i stand dere look at her do, i feel lyk screwing her up. at her rate and repeating times, she's so gona get sack! argh!! buzz. rawr!! and the best ting is, she dun let me do my work, she kip interupting me, lyk as if i cant do it, ok i not as expreience, but u can guide mah. u liddat do, i oso cant learn! =(( oh my!! 真是一山不能容二虎！！ hee.

den we worked OT..now super tired. im gona slp super early tonight i hope. yawns. tml gona be another long day. i feel so sick working at bukit batok poly clinic, as in literally, *cough. haiz. too many virus =(

to all tt i love and i care, take care!!
loves. JiaWei 23Aug2010
A durian a day keep the doctor away <3

sunday MOURNing

2010-08-22T12:15:00.002+08:00

ITsme

yawns~ early in the morning at 0830. jiawei woke up in a total shock!! oh mann!! my tuition starts at 0830!! sian!! nid to rush agn. RAWR! wells. the kids mum was v understanding, so i manage to get off in peace. oops. but today's tuition was not too efficient. i realise tt oral cum too naturally to me, which hence i ve got problem teaching it, coz i din learn it, it juz came to me. so its lyk common sense to me..blah blah blah. my kid's oral is a total fail!! oh mann. so hard to teach sum1 how to tok, when i only see him once-twice a week?! ve to work on that mann.><

wells wells. nearing the end of the lesson, i gave my kid a chocolate bar, he was so happy, hope tt will motivate him to cont'd strive harder and concentrate during lesson. if not ah..his chinese..will be lyk... ... my eng? CUI TTM!! =((

ke ke ke... im at home doin nth. so boring. so freaking BOOOOOOring. ><
and im freaking hungry. no lunch no breakfast. hmm..0the kid's mum gave me coffee, and i ate a bunch of grapes..and a bar of time out. hmm. tt actually alot rite? haiz. but im hungry. 0830 to 1230..4hrs nia. maybe i shall eat 1430 or sth. blah~

yawns.
JiaWei 21Aug2010
All The Best to wadeva u do =))

YOG JUDO!!

2010-08-22T01:51:00.004+08:00

ITsme

ARGZ! tml is YOG Judo game!! the tix ia 30 bucks. and according to lynn jie, its the most expensive tix among all the games>< but its so gona worth it la!

wells. the tix are all sold out. no chance for me to watch anywayss. money kinda saved, but fun is missing>< its so gona be a boring day aft my tuition in the morning~
oww...hope tml will be fun being at home doing nth =) *cross fingers.

oopsie daisy.
JiaWei20Aug2010
---Stay.

day of FOOD!!! =D

2010-08-22T01:38:00.003+08:00

ITsme

heheez. wad a guilty day!! i had all my fav food today!! wad can be beta than tt??!!

i went to mit dear lynn alvin guoying and edwin for durians!! and i was late for an hr. they had their dose of durians by the time i was dere>< wells. i bought the 3 for 10bucks durian, and ate them up!! woots. its awesome~

apparently, they commented tt my 3 for 10dollars is nice than their durians!! awesome rite? im so evil.

den aft tt i met turtle for dinner, which i was still not hungry for food. wells. desert shud then cum into place <3 heheex. i ate the this mango snow flake thingy. its total disappointment!! 天啊！！ so disguiting! still dare to say hong kong cafe! throw hong kong face nia~ haiz. feel so cheated for the food ><

den went home to slack and pack my stuff, took a nap for lyk 45mins..hmm. den its supper time! =D i met up w the ben(s) , and the supper was SUPERB!! woo~ kuay chap was lyk heavenly, when i realise tt i ate fruits and desert for the day, but i din eat any proper meal =( oh no..den i ate freaking 3 bowls of kuay chap!! so scary!! =X wells. its so jiawei~ oops.

see see. its a day w food!! so sinful!! oh no.. now. im gg to slp, w my tummy full w pigs' intestine, in my intestine..burp..>< so full. tml i wake up, cfm plus chop become pig. oinks~

with all love
JiaWei 20Aug2010
Don't Worry Be Happy =D

Stay - Fann Wong.

2010-08-21T02:11:00.001+08:00

ITsme

stay 因为夜太美

寂寞的月亮需要星星陪

stay 不管夜多黑

不管天会亮不去想明天

-----REFF-----

带我飞远远的到天涯到海角

浩瀚的天际里只要有你陪

也许苦也许甜不害怕不后悔

因为爱让我们再也分不开

just stay

--------------

stay 因为夜太美

寂寞的月亮需要星星陪

just stay 就算是不对

就算是沉沦错误也是美

(*Repeat Ref)

带我飞远远的到天涯到海角

浩瀚的天际里只要有你陪

也许苦也许甜不害怕我不后悔

因为爱让我们再也分不开

stay, stay...

tuition boy boy so cute!!

2010-08-21T01:55:00.002+08:00

ITsme

hahaha. my poor boy, tuition was pushed from 7pm to 8pm. by 900pm, he was so tired. he was on the table writing his work. =.=ll 可怜，可爱？？ hahhahaa

aiyo. but he v good boy, he rmb all his 听写 words, so happy for him. #1. he dun nid do too many 习字. #2. he expanded his number of vocabs. den i decided to regain his energy w chocolate!! haahaa. it worked! woots. but it din last for long leh. the sugar rush awhile only. =( den he tired agn. now..u see him on the floor. O_O!! yawns for him. oops.

conclusion. best time for kids tuition. MORNING!! hahahaa >.O

Awesomely,
JiaWei!! 20AUg2010.
may happiness be with u <3

ps things tt happened. =DD

2010-08-21T01:42:00.002+08:00

ITsme

hehehee. ppl who noe me. will noe i do stupid things, lyk freaking everyday. haiz.

damn stupid. i was playing w the pillow in the radiographing room today, coz of ultra boredom, and possibly thinking of how to slp w tt pillow, w/o anyone knowing. omg. the senior suddenly came in O_O. 天啊！！ oops. super uber ps!! i was caught red handed slacking. ahhhhhh!!! w the patient pillow >< ps ps ps ps ps.

den aft tt i went to get the request form and to cfm patient. i was bullied by the patient's daughter!! omg! i merely asked for IC no. den i dio shoot lyk free la! omg omg omg!! >< thank goodness sr. radiographer came to rescue. i was lyk ps ttm. so lost and *omg?! hahahaa. limited vocabs. lol!!

ahh. den the most epic, and shortest. i was toking and wan2 sit on the rolling chair. my leg kik my own chair, and it rolled away. i almost fell =.=ll. PS TTM!! omg! how can all these happen to me in one day! im go gona kill myself!!

wells wells. life is abt fun. if no accident happens, no joke, den no fun!!

<3 lubss JiaWei 20Aug2010
天祝你也。

its all over =((

2010-08-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

ITsme

oh my oh my.

changi attachment is all over! =((

hmm. im alr missing attachment in changi!! oh mann. its lyk total awesome! and i swear! i swear i am gg to get bond w changi hospital!! omg! GPA 4.0! aim: CGH!!!
awesome rite?! hahhaaa. i really miss tt working environment, and ppl. =)

oh wells. next wk i will be gg to bukit batok polyclinic..hope the ppl dere are nice too. *cross fingers. HOPEFULLY k!! hahhaaa. and i wan2 complete 3more reports by next wk, u think possible? hmm. hope they ve fingers, forearm, and humerus/shoulder. den i can do my competency!! com'on mann. 放马过来！！ hahhaaa ^^v

emozzz. changizzz. i heard tt can go to their HR to get the doc. for bond. but my results so sucky. i seriously doubt tt they will take me in. unless is in the accord of interest? passion? and care? haiz. i hardly think so ba. >< well wells.

<3 jiawei 20Aug2010
May God Bless You!! =D

lastjudo trng of yr1 sem1 =D

2010-08-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

ITsme

18Aug2010. Last judo Trng of Year 1 Sem 1

awesome! although i was late for trng, but i did manage to join in the fun, and the randori. haiz. missed the bread and butter lesson of breakfalls. so when ppl throw me. i got this weird weird feeling. bones and muscles are not tone yet >.< pain pain >.<

den lynn taught me how to do ippon shunagae and sweeping properly. hmmz. im gona practice it at home when possible, if not i will definitely forget by next trng =( den waste all the efforts lynn and other sr. put in =(

wells. since i joined judo, i really enjoyed myself alot=D ppl are nice, ppl are fun, and ppl are pigs. hahhahaa!!

i wanna giv a big thank you to all the seniors!! 谢谢你们！！ <3

-- Jiawei 19Aug2010
May God Bless You =))

im gona miss CGH =((

2010-08-20T01:40:00.002+08:00

ITsme

Oh mann. 一转眼就过了两个星期=((

-- 一寸光阴一寸金，寸金难买寸光阴

its 2 weeks since i first went for clinicals in CHG.

initially, i rmb i was having horrible butterflies in my stomach. coz im not good w my acad, and im really worried i will cause more trouble than help, and i will screw things up. i nv thot tt i will be able to do this.

however. it was total amaze how much i enjoyed myself in CGH. i really have to say. CGH, u r really really the home of all nice radiographers <3 no matter how cold they looks from the outside, no matter how busy the dept is, they nv fail to spend time to teach us, lead us, and explain to us. i really owe them big. im willing to work for them thru my sept holidays for free!! now i learn tt experience is wad its counts. its never the money now. we do, coz we care =DD this is wad healthcare is about rite? compassion, and concern=D

i dont know wad the radiographers think of me, but im sure, i do lubs all of them, and esp those tt taught me so much, tt i will nv learn in sch, * coz i will fall aslp studying dry books*. and those tt tolerated my nonsense, and help me clear up my mess, aft doin sum wrong things. =)

Thanks so Much!! CGH Radiographers!

-- How much i wish to be part of the CGH radiographers family =DD

Lubbs. JiaWei 19Aug2010

吓到！！

2010-08-18T20:33:00.002+08:00

ITsme!!

YO MANN!! =DD

i spend 2hrs skimming thru' all my old post. and totally 被自己的 blogs 吓到！！
realise tt i post lyk once every blue moon.
and the the mood swings from one end to another!! so drama =D hehee. so jiawei~ <3

*refresh*
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ALL the old post--- --- --- ---DONT VALIDS!! =DD hahahaaa
But its real fun reading wad i done when i was 12. so noob =D
omg!! im toking to myself!!　ａｗｅｓｏｍｅ！！　
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>< noe wad. as i am thinking wad i wan2 post. i am falling aslp.
wells. today juz make it short and swee. den i can ve an early nite. YAWNS!

(TS) Today is a bad day.(support TS) I've made several mistakes during clinicals today, and super paiseh.(Eg) For instance, i took shoulder x-ray, AP and Axillary projections. But did not manage to get it well done, so the radiographer had to do it agn. So disappointed in myself. >< Also, i took a KUB myself..i chopped off part of the pelvis. Simply bcoz my central ray was towards right, and not in the center. (CS) im so noob. so noob. so noob. ><

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《3　 jiawei!! may god bless u!! <3

i realise..actually 我想得通。。

2010-08-18T01:43:00.003+08:00

ITsme

i happen to see this on my blog..as an old old post.
but..it really dried my tears.
coz i realise. i was much a loser in the past.
maybe still so as now...

There's so many things in this world tt i can do.
there's so many people arnd to be friend with.
there's so many places for me to emo.
there's so many..so many.. JUST TOO MANY.

i cant be greedy, to ask for all.
i cant be demanding, to want all.
neither can i force things into me...

有些东西命中注定不是你的，无论如何也得不到，不妨随遇而安，何必强求。

人，是友或敌。只差在待人处事之道。
友，是真或假。只差在真心还是利益。
敌，是强或弱。只差在自己是虚或骄。

朋友
不可多，不可无。
不可亲，不可疏。
不可逼，不可求。

朋友
只能以真心为主。
只能以利益为避。
只能以耐心对待。

其余之，闲渣人。
其余之，非真人。
其余之，不能仁。

人善被人欺，马善被人骑。

虽然，人非圣贤，孰能无德。
但是，江山易改，本性难移。

残酷的社会，唯有适者生存。
同时要知足，不以利自累也。

而对那些心存一恶之人，
我也只能说，万恶便从心恶而生。
宁可面貌丑陋，也不愿思想丑陋。

and i reposted this..agn :((

i LOVE being DR!!

2010-08-18T01:25:00.003+08:00

ITsme

i love my job. i love being a diagnostic radiographer <3

i can help doctor to help patient get better quality in life.

i can help patient understand which part of their bones and tissues went wrong.

i can make patients smile when i help them take radiography.

i can make a day for one patient, at a time.

Or even just one a day. i believe i can make 365 patients happy=DD

this suck

2010-01-11T00:41:00.004+08:00

ITsme
yesterday was my birthday.
i love my fwens more than my family. but i love my family more than my friends.
happy.
jess helped me get almost a most wonderful birthday nite, at kumo's house full w my fav ppl.
jess evelyn chinyang alvin jeremy shouheng not forgetting cute juniors dickson jerome and sherman.
sad.
i rushed home to the next morning to bake cake for my brithday. i did it willingly w passion.
but apparently i get more groaning than praises from my mum. it hurts.
wad my sis my bro says is not as impt. the one i love most made e impact.
perhaps, i juz shud nt love her as much.

on my bday. my mum ask me out w her my bro and his children. to buy my bro and his children stuff. but isnt it my birthday?? such irony. so she is juz using the name of my birthday to see them and shop w them. wad abt me?? she expects me to baby sit his children. izt me being chidish and over sensitive.

i hate my mum. i hate my bro. not coz they are my family, not coz they arent nice ppl, but juz tt im taken too much for granted.

this family i had, screwed up my day, the day i hope tt i will be happy and all.
but it din seems too true now. i noe this will happen, i was prepared for it, but i still cant take it. i juz cant take it, being insignificant in my family, in my circle of friends, where ever i am, wdv im doin. wad can change this.

when is my death approaching?? i want no more or crap...

do i still miss him??

2009-12-26T04:11:00.003+08:00

ITsme

After so long, i have finally return to blog. Perhaps its sth outdated alr, but i juz wan2 tok to sum1. maybe no one sees this, coz im nt telling any1 im back.

hi.

this is jiawei, in the christmas nite. all alone, thinking abt things that are horrible.
i have been wasting my time all this time, nt working, and not making any improvement in my life. Other than crapping it out. gosh.

i visited my facebook. viewed fwens fotos. disappointed. why am i fat? or to say, plum?? how can i slim down, and not be worried of how my tummy shows? or how i hide them.. ><

putting that aside. i oso when to visit this long gone fwen.
Yea, him. he have let go of the past, i shud too. but i cant. why??
dumb dumb. he ve got a new frien, of the same name as me. but it doesnt affect, does it. 10yrs down the road, will he rmb me? the fwen tt only known for 10mths. im not confident. i dun dare to look for him, coz im not confident tt when he speaks to me agn, my heart wont beat a irregular tempo.

basketball camp few days ago. after alumnia match, a little dispute w sah and shell. perhaps they din noe, i cired. alone at the court behind, at the track i last saw him. i cried coz basketball, reminded me of him. second time. im at this camp without him. once we played tgt, once he sat thru the game viewing my play, once i sat by the side, cheering for him. ONCE. thats e only memory i have. once... we din ve the time, we din ve the chance. or to say me.

horrible feeling. horrible. why do i miss him so terribly? its abt time to let go..let go..let go.. long time ago, this mission shud be done long time ago. not now.

christmas nite. alone, thinking of him.

wad is he doing??

><

the last post.

2009-08-27T21:42:00.000+08:00

ITsme

hihi to all.

im hoping that this is my last post b4 A's end. but i noe it wont be. but i will try to make it be. contradics. wells. i have finished watching so many shows, that i feel so guilty. and i ve concluded tt i shud nt 挥霍人生， but to make use of 每一分每一秒。 perhaps it wont be easy to change over the nite, but i muz try, muz not guv up b4 try, rite. haha.
i dunno how long this determination of mine can last. ya. try try. haha.
ohhhhh~

-此地不留人，自有留人处。

i dunno wad i wan2 say...i dunno wad to say..

juz wish me all the best.

take care friends.

im waiting for that day to cum...

soon.

wats now.

2009-08-27T00:48:00.003+08:00

ITsme

wats w me?

i dunno.

i wan2 study. but nth goes into my mind. until when i breakdown, until when i tear.

i noe its useless to tear, to cry lyk an useless baby.

but its nt within my control. its nt within my range.

im trying. still trying. but will i success? i dont noe.

do you?

this in no longer me. this is no longer the gal i noe.

the soul is lost, the heart lost its beat.

why bother living the body?

unless i leave the battleground lyk a lousy tut

if not, i should challenge the ht. of 12 floor

... ...

"嘴角弯弯，眼角泪干。。。 "

perhaps. this is the true me.
the useless me.
the one that success in nth.

丑

2009-06-23T01:36:00.006+08:00

《丑》

是我吗？

今天，我说了个谎。甚至，我每天都说谎。是不严重的谎言，但不是白色谎言。我， “丑” 了。

对凡夫庶子而言，丑是就叫人厌恶而瞧不起的。但是，那是它的真正含义吗？

有些人觉得自己是世上最美的。有些人却觉得自己是世上最丑的。你是那类人呢？我是世上最丑的。并不因为五官不端正，也不因为胖胖的。就因为觉得是个不什么成功的人，是因为缺乏信心。

有人说过：“。。有双好看的眼睛。。”

可是，并没有开心一整天，甚至开心一秒钟。就只是反复地在想，难道除了眼睛，就没有可以让别人注意到的东西吗？另一个说法是，难道除了会老化的外表之外，就没有可以被人注意到的内在吗？

失望。并不是因为觉得丑。是因为觉的世上的人都只是空壳，都只是表面的物体。也对，人生短短几十年，逍遥走一回。有些人一生活在病痛中。有些人一生活在困苦中。可因为他们，有些人一生慈悲，做义工。有些人一生慷慨，捐血汗钱。

那丑，又算什么？

2009-05-30T03:25:00.003+08:00

ITsme

this is stupid noisy trying to be funny, huayao. haha. dun let van see, she will kill me. haha. wells. oops. he was tied in the chair with the old bball netting, and his shoes laces, which i juz realised, is lyk my shoes, got two diff supid bight color. damn stupid. the most impt thing is, the his feet was tied together!! haha. oops. he cant walk!! muahaha!! den wan2 take foto, he still hide hide, comb his hair den pose for taking foto. teerible lor!! haha.

this was lyk on wednesday...when we initially got bball interhouse, cip training and blah blah blah... wells, everything was CANCELED!! maybe u feel lyk gald than ever...coz liddat good mah..dun nid do anything. i oso think its good, den i can go trng, and play bball. haha. really ENJOYED myself. sumhow i cincluded tt its impt to enjoy ourselves, the right way, even when studying and preparing for exams. haha.

wells. wednesday that physics paper was postponed to 11thjune. nt too long l8r...guess i nid to quickly mugg!! haha. fun...hmm...i really ponder.. haha. but, i love my friends arnd me!! omg!! it juz makes me so happy and enthusiastic abt sch!! or to say...i love jess kor kor! Jeanette papa! and alvin mama! and my fav center junior, yancheng! fav bball junior, shimin! fav chia. fav zhen! fav soulmate...and fav alot alot!! alot alot~~!! and alot alot. haha..and all the gossips, and all the sharing of knowledge, and discussion of questions...all these stuffs that friends does!! i love them all!! though it might seems to b the stupidest thing, and smallest thing ever!! but i can tell u that, its the thing tt i can giv up everything else for, for that seconds of warmth tt i can get..sth tt my fam cant gimme. if i am given a choice, i am willing to spend all my time w my friends, even if i noe i only ve 24hrs left....maybe..i wan 10hrs w my friends, 5hrs w all my fam, 5hr w e guy i like..and 4hrs alone..and juz die off....

i dunno why am i thinking abt this...but when im alone..i really feel the..emptiness...
sth in my mind..sth tt i cant tell anyone. nt a single soul. nt any of the love ones i ve. once its out of me, alot of ppl will get hurt, and trouble will be stirred. gosh. nt good. ..and im sure i wont be able to go out w them, with all the good time..if i say it out. things...will b lyk shit. i could only lie, to him, to me, to everyone else. haiz. dun guess the wrong person . please. its nt him.

its 0441 now..i got to slp...nites!

2009-05-24T04:07:00.001+08:00

ITsme

there's so many things in this world tt i can do.
there's so many people arnd to be friend with.
there's so many places for me to emo.
there's so many..so many.. JUST TOO MANY.

i cant be greedy, to ask for all.
i cant be demanding, to want all.
neither can i force things into me...

有些东西命中注定不是你的，无论如何也得不到，不妨随遇而安，何求强求。

人，是友或敌。只差在待人处事之道。
友，是真或假。只差在真心还是利益。
敌，是强或弱。只差在自己是虚或骄。

朋友
不可多，不可无。
不可亲，不可疏。
不可逼，不可求。

朋友
只能以真心为主。
只能以利益为避。
只能以耐心对待。

其余之，闲渣人。
其余之，非真人。
其余之，不能仁。

人善被人欺，马善被人骑。

虽然，人非圣贤，孰能无德。
但是，江山易改，本性难移。

残酷的社会，唯有适者生存。
同时要知足，不以利自累也。

而对那些心存一恶之人，
我也只能说，万恶便从心恶而生。
宁可面貌丑陋，也不愿思想丑陋。

保重啦。。。bitch!

2009-05-24T03:16:00.003+08:00

ITsme

hihi peeps!! haha. i noe i v long nv blog le. so tt's y im blogging now!! haha. even though its lyk 0330 in e morning?! i juz got home frm macs, studying dere...den got so bored aloneeeee. den came home:DD

lately a few big events happened to me:))

firstly, is the sports day. haha. it seems to be only ytd..but i was in fact last wed!! haha. wells. admiralty won champion house, and i won champ individual!! haha. we got 2 big big trophies!! ohoh..den were saying tt if the J1 guy knew danny got 3 individual event, and join one more event, den he will win the individual champ too, den admiralty can 扫空all e big big trophies!! haha. i muz comment tt piecre cheer leading is lyk damn good, while ours is lyk damn mann!! haha. seletar one was damn frekaing funny...lyk stripping?! haha. den oh dearrr...my physics cher fell down?!?! in front, in my face?! while i was cheering for him...sorry...i cant help, coz im one of the officers tt is suppose to maintain and govern e race...and nt a medic, so i could nt step onto the lanes....sorry.

secondly, the student leader investiture!! haha. was damn fun, too!! lolx. coz it was lyk gr8 time spending w the house excos ppl, and i nv get to noe the student council ppl, coz too many of them, and i always got prob w names, and ppl. so, juz keep to a few closer juniors, instead of lyk spliting up lyk xiao!! haha. wells, but if the students council juniors says hi...i will say hi:)) but..i honestly cant rmb them, but only their big big name tag><. wells, we went out to study tgt aft investiture everyday, aft rehearsals, and i muz compliment tt juniors are really hard working fellows. haha. they ve their heads in their notes when they start studying , and when playing. they play till their heads drop off!! good spirit! hope they can get the best for both cca and acads!! kampateh!!. oh ya..hehe..*guilty...until now, i still ve yet to learn the entire sch song, and the song we performed..but i now how to mouth those words..i guess..aft all, ms surati din scold me...hope she doesnt see this. if nt i will die. haha.
ok la.wad else happened? oh ya!! we went for midnite movie aft investiture..it was such joyous event, and i was yujo when we were eating dinner!! she's learning wu shu now!! and in fact hse ve achieve the yellow belt!! cool!! liddat can go along w jiajie v well hor..haha.

ohh ya..next big thing, is the combination of the entire wk refllection!! monday math test, screwed, friday CLL test screwed. but im happy w tuesday econs test and thurs phy test. i hope i can score for tt two papers, afterall, i studied v hard for tt two!! ><

oh ya!! suddenly rmb tt day during GP lesson, i went to washroom, den on my way back, mr toh asked me whether i am interested to join nat juniors!! he say i can qualify for the competition...and..i was asked to join?! ok la..nth much actually, but the sense of achievement is definately dere. wells...humble humble..:)) but i dun train for damn freaking long!! i wonder how i will do for shot and jav now..furthermore, mr sarav ve left..its lyk lack confidence, coz i dun lyk e current track cher>< hais. 为了SGC...加油吧！！

haiz..today i missed the physics tutorial...coz ytd i slp half way..feel stupid fever...den went to eat paracetomol..den overslpt. lyk...lesson is at 0830, i woke up at 1400?!?! omg. terrible lor!! so unhappy. sian....sure get it frm mr sim liao:((

lastly...lately im super moody, esp during sch hrs..and only peggy can understand me... only she suffers the same fate as me..wells. dun tok abt it...really get angry and irritated abt it. nt anyone..but i call it a IT. GET IT?! dun think abt a person...think abt a thing..:D

wells

2009-05-19T01:09:00.004+08:00

ITsme

Left side: The trophy for my Individual Champ!!

Right side: The cups aligned in my room!!

haha....abit full ahh... haha

2009-05-19T01:03:00.004+08:00

ITsme

Left: The Medals, Cups and trophy i won this year at inter house sports day!!

Right: ALL the AWARDS i received from YJ, stnicks, and external.

Bottom: The Awards tt i achieve from YJ these 2 yrs.

2009-05-13T00:45:00.005+08:00

ITsme
heyy!! im selling this pair of NEW BALANCE SHOES!! coz my brother help me buy shoes, and he stupid go buy the shoe size tt is bigger than this own leg. dumb. den he dun wan2 help me change size. so i could only sell this shoes and buy new ones. well. as i say, ytd tt fell down coz my old shoes no friction. gosh! so quickly buy my shoes!!

its US size 10. and im wiliing to sell it at s$99.95. maybe cheaper?
can bargain de..cum cum cum!! <>

2009-05-13T00:19:00.002+08:00

ITsme

oh ya..then today qianyuan told me sth damn super traumatizing!!

he told me tt he noe i lyk ocean..but its lyk an open secret, and im super ok w it now..coz as i say..i am slowly walking out of it. haha. juz tt, wats w tt random-ness la? lolx. den i ask him when he noe, he was lyk...v long le. but im super sure it was kept secret till J2 tt the emotions broke. coz J1 i thot there's always another yr, but at tt v moment tt i noe tt we may retain, and i noe he wont stay, den i was lyk SHIT. gosh. wells. den on my birthday, e result came out. i promoted. he dint. wats w my hardwork to promote? haha. wells. but i muz really thank him. nt for him, i wont study so hard and get myself promoted, which i din at all regret. even though he have left me, but i will always ve my classmates w me, my dearest laoda, linglan, peg, manda and last but nt least, jiayun. of coz, still ve channy, boonie, maira, fartin, tongs, kiong, yuan...and the most hated me long. haha. oso dunno why he hate me so much. initially was quite KNS w his attitude. but aft tt i learn tt i cant possibly make everyone lyk me. but i dun lyk hating ppl, so there's no nod for me to hate him though he hates me. i juz ve to play along. sumtimes throw him sum praises, he will b quite happy. and i oso dun nid to be in bad mood. its mirror image. things works 2ways, nt one.

hmm..wad else?? oh!! den tt yuan was lyk super gossip!! he was lyk....trying to get my interest w haiyang's stuff..but. i am nt interested. coz i am gg to move away frm this. this is getting too draggy. and i realise, he noe all e while tt i lyk him. no matter wad his stand is, i no longer care. maybe i do. but, no changes can b made, so dun bother.

the fact is that it misses him...and i still hope he is here.
"my life will be no nice without u.."i rmb i telling him this. he was kinda unhappy , but i wan2 let him noe...
wad i meant was tt..only if he did nt appear in my life, making all the uneven heartbeats, my life wld b much beta. ya...

hope yuan can stop all those comments of no help, and juz stop telling me abt him, though i really wish to noe. but if he dun wan2 let me noe, dun let me noe. coz i respect his decision. if he wan2 let me noe, he will contact me automatically.

tt's abt all tt i will say.

天网恢恢，疏而不漏，自情愿。
正义邪教，是非黑白，对或错？
真情假意，一场欢喜，一场空。
只唯你我，心知肚明，实悲哀！

2009-05-13T00:03:00.002+08:00

ITsme

yo manns! haha. today i went to see chinese senseh. coz i got my back injured. lyk hell la!! all coz ytd got extra lesson in sch, den on my way home, was shit hell raining!! i happily slipped and fell?! lyk wth!! coz i was walking SUPER slowly alr, but coz my shoes really no friction le..den WOOOOAHHH!!! i fell down. bouncing down the steps for arnd....3? or 4? haha. dunno la. also, i dropped my fone, it went bonkers!! and i gave it one day break. HOWEVER, today, it juz lyk knock its head against sth..again...den its spoiled. so, dun bpther looking for me, my fone is dead. haha. aiya!! most imptly, it was super 丢脸!! gosh. wells. but the rest of the day was grt, mtg zhen and chia..is lyk my happiest thing!! haha. chiz bought me this BIG BIG BIG MICKEY MOUSE HAND!! haha. GIMME A FIVE!! haha. they all ve one of those each!! haha. so CUTE!! den we watched 17again. i was hoping.....i could ve mine...when i was 17...again. i will do it differently, i promise, i wont let it slipped pass me this time. ><

tok abt tdy la. was generally fine..but only till i went to see tt senseh, who is a china WOMAN, she was such an ass! she was lyk...：“你是新加坡公民，还是。。。。。” i wanted to die tt instance!! i am 100% pure SINGAPOREAN!! 我不是中国公民！！不要再误会我了！！天啊！！ wats wrong w her la?!?! den she went out, tellin her CHINA colleages tt i am nt frm china!! OMG!! dun tell me tt all of them thot tt i was frm far away land, china?! 天啊！！天啊！！ can go die liao lor!!><>

2009-05-10T16:47:00.002+08:00

ITsme

My tigger enjoying his time playing w MAIRA's winnie the pool.

我躺，我躺，我躺躺躺！！哈哈！！呵呵！！

2009-05-10T16:45:00.001+08:00

ITsme

I made this myself.

looks nice right?!

okok..abit melted..

abit lyk...sth else..

but!! its nice!! juz AGREE!!

heheeee

2009-05-10T16:06:00.002+08:00

ITsme

hehe..friday was GRT!! coz i noe how to do the SPA paper..and u noe wad? it was suppose to use ruler...i suppose. but i heard this guy told his friend tt he used elastic band...den his friend was lyk...=.=lll haha. quite funny. okok. dun laugh at ppl, coz i might oso be wrong. oops.

haha. OF COZ. friday was grt nt only bcoz of tt, oso coz the sch ended earlier than usual.. unlike every friday, e sch ended at 1410. super early de lor!! usually is 1710, is lyk big big diff!! haha. lets see..its coz got CCS SYF..den mr sim nice nice, let us off early!! MUAHAHAHAA!! den i started playing bball, till 5plus, when we had sports day rehearsals..i was SUPER nervous, coz i am leading in the athletes oath, which is lyk...OMGG!!! haha. the only person in sch tt had 3gold awards... WAHSEH!! sum more they called my name thru PA system... SHY de lehs!! haha.

ok la. friday is over, its time to study. sat, i went to sch for physics lesson, i woke up lyk at 6 to do my tutorial..and eat breakfast..get everyting nicely done..den i went to sch. den noe wad?! i saw this bus uncle at the door step, den he tell me tt he gg to lock the gates, den i tell him i ve got lesson, den he was lyk..den the tcher shld ve e gate keys, shld nt b much of a prob. den i called mr sim. HE say...the lesson is POSTPONED to monday. SAYKIONG!! U DIN INFORM US!! IDIOT!!! >< gosh! sucker!

wdv, den i went to CPCC to study lor..nt bad, quite productive. den i met jess pri and syahrul for house exco thing...fUN!! aiya..den i went home, den aiya...dun wan2 say. haha. coz nth to say. but aft tt fam makan, den i went to my sis house over nite..den this morning my bro in law taught me physics. haha. STRESS!! coz i dreamt of him scolding me!! help!! FEIRCE!! ><

wells wells. den my sis and bro in law went for photo taking for my bro in law grad photo. ehh..they drop me off at outrum park MRT..den i took 851 home..tt bus...has alot of memory to me. although it was only for 20mins..but, it kept repeating....and repeating. ya.

oh..a joke, i was at e bus stop, i was thinking of buying sum food, tidbits? den i bought sth w 90cents..BRAIN FOOD. haha THE STRAITS TIME!! oops><

ok la. nt v funny, but i thot its a grt change of me...lyk since when i gave up tidbits for newspaper? lolx.

ok la. i go cook dinner for my mummy..hope she'll ve a grt mum's day!!

LOVES, JIAWEI!! JIAWEI luv-u-all!!

2009-05-07T19:54:00.002+08:00

ITsme

wednesday was lyk as per usual...pe, math cll gp.
but his time round, its so damn idiotic.
pe was suppose to b games, den stupid rain, and alot of ppl pon pe, we ended u doin physical training. IDIOTC!!
math, i fell aslp, as usual, but its nt good. coz i still finding out how can i stay awake.
hope i din get e slpg disorder illness. dumb.
blah blah blah..the class missing of jiaqi, jiayun manda piggy..oops peggy, linglan...IS SO BORING!!! gosh gosh.

wdv la. but aft sch was w admiralty ppl, doin e rehasals for marching..damn fun. but i kana molested by shona!! she march behind me, dunno why must hit my butt?!!!! gosh! v tramatising one lehx..as wad LL say..上一个学都要给人家乱摸。。。！” haha...worst of all, tt wisarut say he tempted?!!?!! lyk wad d F?! haiz.

den tdy sch, end arnd 1510, den i auto ask LL go find mr sim tgt...ehh...funny la!! tt LL mind dunno filled w wad. entire phy lec she staring at Mr sim TIGHT PANTS..!! she lyk, AMUSED>! haha. terrible la. den she thinks i will tell him, lolx. i nt tt idiotic la>< dun worry.

wells, i was in total fear today..coz i forgot to bring phy lec notes..den mr sim saw, he lyk ..why u lookin at my slide? nt looking at ur notes? my mind was lyk, oh SHIT!! den he say, u got copy? den of coz ve la..if nt will die lehx!! haha. den he say, ok, fair enough. PHEW!! haha. goodie!!

好啦。。i go study le...tml got phy spa...if dun do well, its lyk kiss goodbye to 5% of total A'level paper..haix. jiayou ba...

2009-05-05T22:21:00.001+08:00

JIA WEI!!! = 嘉纬！！！ = loser.

提倡loser之歌！！

提倡good game 之歌！！

2009-05-05T22:13:00.003+08:00

ITsme

lalala..these few days ve been fine.

Spa sKILL A is killing me. haha. but. friday, the big day, everything will b done.

oh ya...i still owe Mr Chua alot of homework, gg to do NOW!!

but honestly, i dunno how to do>< so confused.

wells. i will still giv it a try, den see how it can b helped during tutorials lor.

tdy, qianyuan show me his ocean's msg.

lyk dots la?! all abt basketball?! wats so fun abt watching it?!

i think its beta to play it. watch 10 + 2 ppl running aft e ball, and 2 more outside screaming...

rather dumb i think. the 2 screaming are coach la..if u din realise. haha

fine fine. noe quite abit abt him. but honestly, no feeling.

juz thot tt the msg was damn lame.

in fact i was more enthu abt seeing qianchi's msg.

afterall, 物是人非，事事休。

so, i think i nt so much abt him le.

juz abit itch at times.

多一点时间，我一定可以放手。。。

有时候，我多希望我可以更无情。。。

至少不用受思念之苦。。。

哈哈！！！。。。！！！

MUACKS!! <>

2009-05-03T23:52:00.003+08:00

ITsme

omg!

又来了！juz shuddup will u?! 我知道你刚做工回来，很累，很不想动。不过也不要太过分！！
i juz wan2 clear my clothes and do my work, so i can slp early tonight and go sch tml!
给我闭嘴！！什么跟什么的？！叫我早点睡，然后转过头来叫我煮水，烫衣服？！
you, yourself is a BIG oxyMORON!

什么大道理？！
什么父母指令？
什么老吾老已及人之老。。。
什么天地之常理？！
什么要得到他人的理解，就要先理解他人？
什么屁道理？！
简直是狗屁不通！！
设根本就是鸡蛋与鸡的关系！！

i took a step bask for u alr. yet everytime i do it, u take a step forward.
pushing me towards e edge is wad u wan2 do?!
fine.

要罗说，跟我老师罗说去。
不要在我耳边说个不停。
只有这样，才能一举两得。
才能让你继续罗说，而我的老师也能了解我的情况。

maybe its me.
maybe i ve LOW EQ.
but wad can i do?
i cant survive on low EQ, and low IQ rite?!
at least let me built up on my IQ~!

算了。
反正地球都要死了。
什么econnomic crisis。
什么SARS。
什么birdflu。
什么swine flu。
blah blah blah。

死只是迟早的问题。

why bother caring abt all this is the world?!

这一切的一切，都只是虚幻的。
这一切的一切，死后也带不走。

至少，先在的快乐是值得珍惜的。
至少，我还有电脑可以听我诉苦。
至少，现在我心情好多了。
至少，终于可以开始读书了。
至少，还有六个小时才开课。
至少，。。。。。。

他妈的~

2009-05-03T19:06:00.005+08:00

when i study... ...
first...FOCUS.
next...eyes CLOSED.
lastly...heads DOWN!!

oh gosh.... ....

救命啊！！

2009-05-03T17:36:00.002+08:00

ITsme

juz got home from my sis house!!

haha. i ve got nice jie jie and nice jiefu~~ haha.

they taught me physics..and i did my compre..

its a good place to study there.

haha..now slacking, l8r gg to bathe. den dinner.

den STUDY!!

juz now jess ask me to go out play bball.

i rejected. sad... ..

but, now i ve more time for myself, and got time to study~!

i dun wan2 type le..

watch 新射雕英雄传。。den go study.

take care!!

<3>

2009-05-02T14:43:00.004+08:00

ITsme

heyy!! today i went to for PHY SPA!!! yoyoyo!! so super surprised tt i din over slp!! haiyo..dun praise la..will fly one lehx. haha><

i was having fun doin tt spa thingy..it was easy to set the experiment..but bcoz it was easy to set the experiment, there was very little safety and reliability precaution. i only write 1 for safety, and 4 for reliability..sure DIE!!

den aft paper, tt STUPID qianyuan kip asking me to play bball. I WAN!! but i cant..i promise nt to touch tt ting until nxt friday, for good health..hehe..excuses. but i muz say this wk i reject bball so many times le..for instance, ytd on my way home frm camp, o walk pass 755 bball court, my friends were chio-ing me to play..den i say cant la..got to go..u noe..my heart was lyk.."picia! BREAK!!" but i still walked on.. tt's e way to go!! kip on doin this, sure can success de. KAMPATEH!!

of coz, instead of playing i wan2 go run 2.4 de..but e stupid urcher ppl r dere, i DUN WAN2 DIE!! so i decided to run the big bball court..hmm. nt run la. i did foot drills. I FEEL GOOD! haha. but my knee is lyk..cluk cluk cluk..PAIN!! guess i wont do sport til the next pe lesson:D can de la!! must take care.

den aft tt i went to eat breakfast, ALONE!! LL ps me..2nd time this wk...ok. 2nd time WITHIN 4 DAYS!! the previous time i was super angry alr. i immune. nxt time i choose to go w others..dun make a single noise. ><

aft eating..i went home..almost over slp on the bus..i peep thru the window..REACH LE!! gosh!! i jumped up..and...the person beside me dio hit by my bag..sorry ah. oops. pain hor..i sayang ok? dun cry liao* haha

i bathe and do compre..my mum is damn freaking noisy..damn freaking IRRITATING!! “出来烫衣服！！” “出来洗碗！！” “出来添饭！！” “。。。。。” damn it la!! i doin homework la!! i juz tell her nicely, leave it dere, i cum out do when im done w my compre..den she was lyk pajiao-ing!! " 放住？！等一下你就忘记le lor！！” but seriously, which time did i forget?! SHH!! i doin work!! dun disturb!

他妈的！！

all my 好心情。。all my 读书的动力。。全都没了！！我想你是第一个不让孩子好好读书。。。天啊！！

今天的好心情。。今天所有安排好的节目。。让今天充实。。让我不要胡思乱想的计划。。泡汤了！！完了！！

天啊！！救命啊！！

2009-05-01T23:12:00.004+08:00

48 minutes to 离别的第。。。

第一百天！！

第一百天！！

哈哈。。。。。。

* 苦笑。。。。。

2009-05-01T23:04:00.005+08:00

ITsme
on my way home. i saw this gigantic and scary looking SPIDER!! gosh..its lyk, in front of me!! i RUN! away!! hehe.. but fake la. if i run away, how to take foto? lolx. but seriously, its damn big...arnd 7by 7 cm. was thinking if i shud call police..den i thot it will b quite dumb..den i juz stomp it. ooops. ACCIDENT LA!! haha. *ehhhh><><><>< TML TML TML TML!!! !!! !!!

2009-05-01T22:58:00.003+08:00

ITsme
juz came back frm house exco camp. was fun..but i went late, and came back early. hmm..guess this is my last BIG fun day. wells. alot of things happened, but i no time to share..sry!! haha. but i can say. this badge of house exco members..ARE CRAZY!! and they r muggers....haha!!

its time to mit fun in my books:DD. lets see, i think i can find fun there..
even if i cant, i nid to!! JIAYOU!!

2009-05-01T01:02:00.006+08:00

ITsme
tdy finally see mr sim, nt mr shua. haha. he was nice, and i noe i am guilt-ridden, nt scared of him. wells. he caught me playing bball on his way home. but i was suppose to b having house exco camp. but we had BBALL FAREWELL meal tdy. Mr wong, Ms khoo and jiaolian's treat. muahaha!! they so nice lor..nt all chers liddat de lor. furthermore we lyk lost everything la!!
oh ya. that saykiong la!! ask him cum for farewell party to play and eat..den he juz play dere, far far away!! aiyo. run all e way dere to invite him...den he juz say:" aiya..no one wil realise tt im nt dere de la..." or ath liddat tt he said. haiyo! den can makan liao, he still dun wan2 cum, so i serve him lor, besides serving myself and mr wong. haha..a secret to share, nt i serve one la..i only 负责hold e plate, den terence serve the food..oops. he complain here, complain dere..coz is his first time serve ppl. can see la!! whr got ppl serve curry leaves out of pot of curry chicken de?!?! e chicken fake one izt?! haha. ok la. but he v nice liao, coz i super demanding!! haiyo.
dun think too much ah...its coz of SKFC la!! i secretry la!! so is my responsibility..haha.
hmm...actually this is wad i posted ytd, but e blog xiao liao..cant post out..
hope this time can get thru.
tml got phy spa....gosh....
>< >< >< >< >< >< ><

2009-04-28T21:16:00.007+08:00

ITsme

“有种拥有叫做放手

你做到了我正努力

不知结果只愿拥有

拥有放手拥有回忆”

-- 纬

2009-04-28T17:44:00.004+08:00

ITsme
ytd match against RJC..LOST LYK WINNERS!!
oxymoron? but its true! coz we made them had a hard game to play, and despite the fact tt they trash PJC w 58-5 which is lyk 8.6%. and our score is 82-19, 23.2%. so, we could ve won PJ. so, once agn, i ve to say, PJ match 是我害死的。。。coz i too nervous? haiz. i hate competitions, but i love games. wth is w me? i SUCKS!! haha. wells. dio jiaolian suan. he say: " why jiawei finally can play, den e league is over for us. lyk, oops." so 对不起啦！！ ><>

2009-04-26T21:33:00.002+08:00

ITsme
feel so good listening to this song!! gosh!!
my dream is to 抛下全部烦恼！！好好地痛快地抓狂！！狂玩！！
Da Da Da!! 我好想放假！！

monday -- jav nat'l 8th position
(posted alr)

tuesday -- Shot put --
--> i did beta than i thot i could!! :)) goodie!! but i din win anything. wells. mr sarav was rite. afterall, i din traion for a long long while. i only started track trng lyk march. hehe. *guity!!

wednesday -- Dunman high game - lost.
--> wells. this game was a puzzle b4 game start. coz we ve totally no idea the standard of DM. wells. they turned out quite good. haha. though i think we din really perform at our best, but i ve to say. nice pass. nice assist!! alot of improvements CHICKS!! hee. SMILES!! and evelyn chopped many 3pts!! <33 though we lost. BUT!! we're winners of ourselves. maybe to others its self-consolence. but to me, its nt. we scored 22 against 56. i think. when we're toking abt a sch tt has 3-4 times more exprience than us. :))

thursday -- Quantum Physics TEST!!
--> scrwed la!! haha. nth to say. i will cum back to u and 把你吃掉！！ sounds bad rite. haha. but i will definitely cum back and eat up all my books!! happy happy! stay motivated!!

friday -- Pioneer JC game - lost.
--> oops. we thot we could win this. but i think i helped the team --to lose. gosh. jiaolian say i 脸白白。。i got fever in the morning...sorry la. but. i still think i under perform by alot. die la. i lyk 害死 e entire team. i missed lyk 6underbasket...and 1 got in. wells. i think i improved in the sense tt i manage to pose, high pole, draw file, push in...and sum other stuffs. juz tt din manage to ve a nice ending to shoot it in. sian-est!! guess i slpt thru the first half la!! gosh..lyk drift drift...den jiaolian DAMN ANGRY!! i totally underperformed!! den he SCOLD ME!! but its GOOD!! haha. coz i woke up!! yeah man. the third quater was good. i got a free throw. and i shot in both!! damn shiok!! coz i nv once did tt!! and file throw is my weakest item!! haha. den nt long later..i sprained my ankle...hmm. it was so loud tt the bench can hear the crack. oops. bad rite. SWELL!! of coz. aft so many expriences w my stupid ankle. i learn nt to move at all aft tt sprain. it will only aggrevate it. den i stood dere..while everyone else ran off. >< jiaolian lyk stare stare. den i smiled..and pointed at my ankle. i think i look fine. but. IM NOT!! haha. den he went:" player injured" i think tt v moment, he gave up. he say...:"just enjoy the game..." i feel so bad... i tried my v best to make myself recover tt v moment..i spray medicine, i wore ankle guard, i tie tied my shoelace, i did stretch w my ankle..all sort of things, in great pain. juz to hope tt i can play the last 5mins. but...i din ve e courage to go on court. gosh. aft game, i can see tt everyone was so disappointed. esp sah, jess, eve, me... .. i think all are self reproaching. coz if we could shoot in all the miss shots, we prob wld ve WON!! but, we din. damn it. 该死rite? :((

saturday -- jie jie WEDDING!!
--> 大美女出嫁了！！ haha. so happy for her. its see ah. i slpt at 4 on fri, and woke up at 5. so i slpt 1hr!! i was on heels the entire day, w my SPRAIN ankle..PAIN!! and more SWELL!! haiz. but, for my sis, 我忍！！ haha. cant prob wear flats w gown rite?? so 难堪for my sis. wells. haha. so busy in e day..this and that. 敬茶and stuffs. we fed the brothers with washabi bread, lemon, ribina, 99% coco chocolate..den draw 双喜 on their cheeks! so fun!! hmm. den Peida(mybro in law) had to draw the house key frm a bucket of ICED ICED ICED water. so funny. but actually, many other things are to add to tt, but no time. hee. den they sang 坚持到底。a sing tt has insight meaning for them. afterall, they went thru long dist relationship. v hard lor!! but, their singing is really out of tune, and no tempo. haha. den PD open the door. MY SIS IS SUPER GORGEOUS!! i love my 姐姐！！she's e best!!

ohh. den we went to PD's parent's house.. joke manns. my brother-in-law's brother always thot tt i am frm HWA CHONG!! he was lyk. WAD?!?! FRM YJ?!?! haiz. wats wrong la. haha. guess got tt hwa chong 气质。。cant help it. got this thingy frm st nicks. :DD stnicks rawks!! <33.
hmm. den blah blah blah..alot of things. den dinner. my sis got me to put on make up, and do up my hair. hmm. i cant recognise myself in the mirror. but people all say tt i was pretty...haha. not only my relative..when we went to shake hand good bye e guest at e doorstep aft dinner, alot of ppl tt i nv knew..said tt i look gorgeous!! haha. oops. damn happy la. lyk duh. afterall im gal wad..ppl say pretty will happy de rite!! haha. >< *shy.

hmm..one thing. my mum said..：“如果你要嫁去中国，只要是他，我就会同意。。。” random rite?!?! but she meant it. lols. its lyk totally impossible. coz i dun think he lyks me. haha.

oh. den during dinner, a speech tt i wrote for my sis was read out. she cried. so did i. its was touching the rest said. but, those r seriously wad she was. she's a grt sis!! ( so am i!! haha)

sunday -- gosh!!
--> i woke up at 1..was super hungry!! haha. eat eat. den clean up my house w all the rubbish tt was left frm ytd's wedding. so tired. ankle still swollen. worries. hmm. i ironed my clothes, washed my clothes, changed my bed sheets, swep e floor, mop, fix my shoes...many many things. den oso recieved many many msg frm classmates regarding homeworks..i feel SO FORTUNATE!! coz my friends are so CARING!! I LOVE THEM ALL!! muacks!! now..i type this thing..20mins wasted. l8r still got to clear my piles and piles and piles of homework. hmm. slp by 2 k? coz tml still ve game. i dun wan2 b lyk friday again..v disheartening. i wan to lose as winners!! WOOSSSH!!!

monday -- nt here yet.
-- Raffles game -- will lose??
--> tml moz prob is our last game. no matter how bad my ankle is, i will play. for the team, for me, for him. he was the one who asked me to joined the team, the one who wan to see me success. and i wan2 do it for him to see. maybe i shud call him...Mr. 他妈的。 coz tt was the last word i rmb him saying. haha. with red eyes...awwww. heart pain. haiz. will nv forget. tokin abt this. i made a joke. 1st april wasn't his 100th day. its this coming sat. oops. see kiong, i told u i din count day by day!! but..i really do miss him. wells. i ve make my day busy tt day. the day tt was exactly one wk aft my sis wedding. tt day. i will be in the house exco training camp. hope i wont think of him. juz let tt day pass... ...你的第一百天。 :DD i will smile this time. will u?

I LOVE LINGLAN!! MUACKS!!

2009-04-26T21:25:00.002+08:00

ITsme

蔡健雅 -- 好想放假

Da Da Da 我好想放假拖了鞋晒太阳
如果这个铜板是反面
把咖啡喝完我们快把车掉头开往沙滩
偶而能偷跑真快乐
这天气太好工作是种罪恶
陪我就做一天傻瓜
甚么都不想做个没用的人
只躺着乘凉一起在山顶吹吹风
人们在脚底渺小的像个梦

Da Da Da 我好想放假拖了鞋晒太阳
习惯很用力的生活
在夜里碰头喝喝小酒在八卦里找寄托
这样说真的很寂寞
等头发白了还等不到自由

Da Da Da 我好想放假拖了鞋晒太阳
和你在大街上接吻
跟着感觉就会勇敢揽上没有那么难
快乐的想想中间的爱
难道平凡别跟自己为难

Da Da Da 我好想放假拖了鞋晒太阳
Da Da 我好想放假 Da Da 放个假
Da Da 放个假晒太阳Da Da--Da Da--

想他

2009-04-24T00:04:00.005+08:00

ITsme

吴宗宪打篮球，谁来防守？

慈母。因为慈母手中线。（守宗宪）

绿豆跳楼变什么豆？

红豆。因为它流血。

心里想的。（猜一种大自然景观）

海洋。没原因。

我错了吗？嗯。

这突然的想起。。。

我又要重新再来。。。

忘记他。

its just flashbacks...

i have got to be strong...

time will wash memories off...

but I'm not allowing it...

怎么办？？？

怎么办？？

怎么办？

P.S. LingLan...dun scold me. ><

jav

2009-04-20T22:10:00.003+08:00

`ITsme
i sucks.
omgg. today ve jav nat'l. and i seriously messed it up!! i got myself the 8th position, w a crap dist. lyk damn it lah! so disappointed in myself. i did an average of 26m for trng. and today, due to lack of slp, i got only 23m. 3m..u dun think its alot rite? but w 26-27m, i could easily secure myself the 6th, or 5th position. im so disappointed in myself.
afterall. its all over.
maybe i shud b glad? coz the rest of the throwers all had coaches w them, and me, was all on my own. w/o even a team mate w me. so, was initialy quite awkward, but manage to ignore my surrounding. however, i must nit deny that being alone, really affected my performance. coz im an extrovert. more ppl, adds my energy level.
wdv. now juz wait for my shot put tml lor. wad else more can i do? juz try my best lor.
lessons..lessons..lessons.
stress..stress..stress.
hmm...missing all those lessons may be sweet for now. but future, will be bitter.
stacks of homework. piles of papers. list of teachers who wan2 tok me.
wad crap ve i brought myself to?
i really dunno.
now. my sis wedding is round e corner, and alot of things is happening.
and i dun wan to face all this rubbish when it my turn. shud i even get married?
or shud i even get a spouse. perhaps, i shud juz remain single.
omggggg. i hate this world....
i hate broken family.
i hate family politics.
its worst than friends politics.
worst than class politics.
worst than team politics.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.

why do do i need to face this, on top of my studies and activities?
why do ppl always say family is ur support?
why am i juz in such 'unique' case?
i dun understand.

i ve make my way thru so many yrs.
ignoring this.
but, it out-burst.
and its so sudden.
i cant handle.
in the wrong yr.
at the wrong time.
im so damn stressed up.
and my family is all pouring nonsense at me.
i dun understnd.

i seriously, dun.

hehe

2009-04-18T01:25:00.003+08:00

ITsme
hehe. today quite fun la. lessons were fine. but i wan2 complain why friday morning nid to report at 0725 for CLL?!?! its lyk earlier than usual time la!! gosh. wells. im quite fine w it la. coz it really makes me study..w a direction in mind. haha. hmm. dun ask me why i complained, ok?
den math..as usual, scared mr chua scold me...Phy lec, i was trying my best to understnd la. den Litong damn nice, sit w me, den can tok crap. haha. so was quite awake. but shunyu say today i slpt during lec. got meh?!?! ><. haha. GP was crappy, we do this environment test..lolx. lame, but i lyk!! hmm...break and CLL?? zhang lao the lesson lyk speed boat..w'o fuel. fast but yet can catch. muahaha!! den break AGIAN!! haiz. went to library to do phy homework..den abit LL make me abit angry...but hor..i noe oso coz i nt in the mood, she juz lyk suai, dio shoot! oops. dun scold me ah. yala..den everything was lyk ok only till jiaqi they all came to break e ice. but actually, i noe SK was asking why i sit so far. haiz. eh. den they all crazy lor..sk is 宝树，XL is another monk, den litong is 平阿四。den jiaqi jiayun is 双童。 den i am 田青文。。。eeek!! ehmmm..den phy lessons mr sim late...but he semms to b in really good mood. haha. oops ok la. den track events. i won jav, 26.75m. den discus, 18++m. den shot, 8.95m. muahaha!! i hope i can break sch record, one event is for 200pts lehx. haha. oh ya. den i did 4 by 400m. wells. we came in 2nd, but i din run my best. coz i cant do run under pressure. so, wells, its jess did well. guess she cover my mistake. ok la. i wan2 slp le. nites!! ><

2009-04-14T23:32:00.004+08:00

ITsme
today was nice. though alot of work. but im really happy.

phy SPA skill A..wahseh. 难做dao!! den MJ paper is lyk crap la!!

math lec..gosh..peg and me lyk complaining to each other how slpy we r..but did we fall aslp??
nt really i guess. haha.

break, had curry noodles, cant finish all..juz nt in e rite mood to eat. but i manage to squeeze everything into my big big tummy. and tt stupid linglan ah!! insisted of sitting w her husband, LiTong. haha..之前still kip saying me and him!! omggg..u wan2 his attention, i help u la!! haha.

den we went for econs. omgg..my happiest lesson of the day!! although mr syn gave me a scare by throwing me a sudden question. but it went fine. coz i manage to giv him the ans tt he want, when the previous 2questions, e person he asked, din manage to giv the ans he wants. the happiest thing is tt, he gave me signs of 肯定！！ he is now my fav teacher. coz he is the first teacher who 肯定 my hard work in this period of time, as i am facing all the challenges in my life.

it break again, we went to lib and do work..though we really toked alot, afterall, its noon alr, so tired..we juz nod to slack. abit? haha. ps ps. wells. i ve to say tt kiong's songs are really nice. and his gf nt bad lor. certain angles really damn chio. haha. but, nt my type. hehe. his type of gal, st nicks last time ve alot, if i lyk, die la. be butch liao. haha. and hor. i reallu dunno why the bounce series shoes 涨价。。haha. nt my fault k!! hee. i help u chk again when i ve e time, k? i promise. coz i wan2 buy another pair for my brother oso. 顺便lor :))

den CLL lesson. mr zhang start gg grp work on 雪山飞狐。 he wan us to split our grp further, so tt we can do the questions faster. wells. i worked w wenhui. i think she's really a v good partner to work w in studies, coz she 毫不马虎。and is v detailed. wells. its good la. but 弊端 is tt cant go too detailed..coz will juz confuse ourselves w the overload information.

yea!! end of sch. den i rushed down to mit jess they all for house exco stuffs. well. i saw jeanelle and friend shootin netball. den 我手痒痒。。。oso went to shoot. omg. so diff frm bball....no board la!! ><><

ok la ok la. say until reach him liao. i bathed, and is now blogging. oh!! juz now i went to put my ear stuts back. oh my. the hole close le!! its only..since sat?! 4days?! i got amazing recovering rate la!! haha. wells. den i forced the stut to pierce thru e half way thru hole. it bled lyk xiao. ok liao la now. no more blood.

i go slp le.. yawns

2009-04-13T23:15:00.002+08:00

ITsme

im really glad.

today is good. i noe i din over exert my muscles. coz im nt having muscles aches. and most imptly, i made my way thru 5 suicides. wells. im glad. perhaps, its due to last wk intensive. its good.

today isnt as tiring as last monday. last monday, by this time, im alr as good as dead. so damn freakin tired. as for now. im still motivated to do my work. to even ton thru my nite to study. wells. i have to, dont i? mr sim, mr syn, mr chua, mr heng, mr zhang...all my chers, have been so patient w me. and me. have been so patient towards my team mates. so do they, towards me.
but its juz unfair towards my chers. i wont deny.

im starting to feel 反感towards one gal. and i think partly, or mainly due to my commitments, and i ve to say, sumtimes, closeness is nt everything.

today. im glad.

im glad tt mr sim feels tt im still nt pushing myself for phy.
im glad tt phy is the subject im workin hardest for.
im glad tt im doing so, nt bcoz im scared of him.
im glad tt i respected him.

im gald tt i din throw 8m for shot, which i doubt w tt dist tt i ve, i can make it top8.
im gald tt i din get to throw jav, which i think i dun ve much time left b4 comp. to prac.

im glad tt i got scolding frm jiao lian, coz i ve been missing parts of bball trng for track.
im glad tt he din realise tt i dun ve bball trng on days tt i ve track trng.
im glad tt he din realise tt this is my commitment, tt he scolded me for, tt he took for granted.
im glad tt when jiao lian ask capt if im part of the family... ...
im glad tt she hesitated. and humblely denied.
im glad tt im nt part of this fam.
im glad tt i noe tt i dun ve to giv myself away anymore.
im glad tt my responsibility towords this ended. coz she said denied.
im gald tt i dun ve to stress myself to score, to perfrom, to assist.
im glad tt i dun ve to ve so much pressure on me.

im nt glad bcoz jiao lian scolded me.
im glad bcoz my hard work is nt being recognised.

nt only in bball. also in class.

im so damn, FREAKING glad.

IM SO DAMN FREAKING LOVE THIS WORLD MANNS.

BULL SHIT!!

2009-04-13T00:41:00.001+08:00

i have a delusional life.

trust me.

missing sth in life

2009-04-13T00:11:00.005+08:00

ITsme
i feel that my life is missing of something. something important, something that will make me someone else.
mummy had just unpacked the storeroom, flipping out all the photos that we took as a family, and throwing all the photos that have him in it. yes, he is missing.
in the years that i grew from the ignorant kid, to what i am now, my mum had made me feel that this family is going on well. but i know it very well that, my family is different. my family is unique.
perhaps everyone else will think that a family with dad, mum, sis, bro and me..is 理所当然thing.
but, i do feel sour when i see a happy family. something is missing, in my growth. just something.
my mum is strong. to think, he left her, afters years. but for me. less than 1 yr, i cannot take it. what's more her case. she is just strong. what am i to her. nothing. mother are always the greatest, and i agree totally.
this person i know, who went into my room, and exclaimed: “你小时候这样，为什么长大后变成这个样子？！”
ya, its him who said that. a little sad.. but i gave a good thought over this question.
my answer. i became so boy-ish, because, i am brought up single-handily by my mum. the greatest mum in this universe.
there is a lot of things in my life, i had to make my own decision, and take up full responsibility to these decisions. i would say, its good. freedom, to a lot of teenagers. to me, its a challenge, its a task. because things that are faced, aren't child's play, they are choice that are to make, that will change my life. and perhaps my mum's too.
growing up without a d*d, no one is protecting me, especially when my mum is busy at work.
i used to have my brother with me whenever i go out play, because the neighborhood that i live in doesn't play barbie, doesn't play computers.
they play skates, blades, bike, soccer, and even...fights.
wooden sticks, sand bags, fists...are some common weapons that i see.
thank goodness i studied in st nicks. otherwise, i would not know what could i have become.

my life, like a jigsaw puzzle. missing of this piece.

i have got to be strong.
i realized that studies is not everything. its just another piece which makes my puzzle.
but thinking of this. im puzzle can never be perfect, why should i bother.
my aim is to have a perfect life puzzle. but it could never be done.
should i throw this puzzle away, and start afresh?
start a new puzzle. start a new life.

end my old life.

i wonder...

sentosa w 223

2009-04-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

ITsme
hihi. today im feeling so much beta le!! coz i went to sentosa w 223 peeps. haha
ook. nt really class gathering. coz only 10 out of 17 came. inshort. nt alot.
me, LL, Peg, jiaqi, jiayun, pris, kiong, tong, yuan and long.
hehe..but i was super late, we were suppose to mit at 8 at amk mrt.
but i damn smart, jiaqi gave me morning callSS..i answered, and went back to slp.
haha. so damn tired la. and noe wad. they actually thot tt i wont go lor!!
how can u all ve so little faith in my promise?!?! ><
haha. i say will go den wil go de mahx.
ok la...if its other ppl, i might nt go la. but for u all, i will go lor.
afterall, its our first and only 'class outing' of the JC life, b4 A's.
we really had a grt time..but still. alot ppl missed it.
and only if he was dere...it will be more more more more fun.
i guessed. haha
hmm..today, as usual, i bathed at the open shower..lyk ok wad..
den LL was lyk wad?!?! haha. she wants a cubical. haha.
but so packed..im nt waiting, im e mann!! haha. i dun mind. haha.
den LL gave me her first time. haha.
first time bathing w sum1 else..
ehh..i ve a secret..tt's my first time too.
usually i bathe at the open shower alone..w e strangers, coz i noe they wont reg me.
ehh...thru today, i oso realised tt actually other than litong and qianyuan, saykiong and xuelong 人也很好。。。 lyk, i use to dislyk xuelong..but i realise tt he doesnt lyk me, doesnt make me doesnt lyk him. its so tiring to nt lyk a person, but its so fun to tease a person who dun lyk me.
prob coz he wil b v frastrated. haha.
i noe he wont mind. coz got LL. haha!!!!
they r damn nice!! long went arnd to look for bicycle rentals and he lead in e way, checkign the route tt we're taking is right.. saykiong juz stayed at the back, ensuring tt no one is left lost. haha
so gentleman. hah. but this is e first time i see this kinda of things lor..!!
hmm..tokin abt this, i woke up late today coz ytd was on fone w shun till near 4 or 3?
cant rmb..juz rmb till i really v tired. den juz slp. haha
ya. ytd was really a bad day for me la..toking crap can make me feel beta.
heez, thanks.
ok la..im eatin dinner now...abit full liao... tt's y i stopped to type this.
haha. nites!!

安慰

2009-04-09T20:19:00.004+08:00

ITsme
不要把我的欢乐当作理所当然的。。。
不要把我的乐观当作理所当然的。。。
不要把我的努力当作理所当然的。。。
不要把我的一切当作理所当然的。。。

一切，都不是我最深心情。。。
一切，都不是最真实的我。。。
一切，都是我捏造出来的。。。

可能我不是赢家。
可能我不是输家。
可能只是放弃了。

一句你的问候。
一句你的肯定。
一句你的打气。

是我渴望的吗？
不是。

我要的只是安宁。
我要的只是平静。
我要的只是被遗忘的嘉纬。

你在哪里？？
你会回来吗？
你回来吧。。

我不能失去自己最真挚的灵魂。
我不能失去自己最纯真的灵魂。
我不能。

老天，
放过我吧！！

我认输了。
我不玩了。
我求求你。

不要再玩弄我了。
不要再恶整我了。
不要再愚弄我了。

我累了。
我不要再当好人了。

a B

2009-04-09T17:55:00.004+08:00

ITsme
世界就是那么的现实。无论有多么多的主意。。还是任何的东西。只要你达不到他们要的要求，你什么都不是。而，这就是我。
站在我出生就一直住在组屋门外，十楼。。两个钟头。我想了很多。有人说，人生就算一场梦。我这场梦，还可真的是恶梦啊！ PW 我整组人都得到A, 但，我却得到了B. 为什么呢？我不了。我又没有偷懒，也没有不做事情。为什么呢？
真得好累。。标枪，篮球，house exco., 还有学业。。我快承不下去了。好累。
教育系统就是这样，一定是把所有的人都逼上同样的道路。没有人可以避开，没有人可以例外。只要是走不上这条道路，就是世俗眼中的失败者。我们的表现指标真的是最标准的吗？真的可以让所有的人都发挥所能，突破自己吗？我不觉得。
我也想离开这里，抛下一切。。重新再来。我不资格的不是学业，而是人生。
我是个失败的人。但，我不能放下我的妈妈。。我唯一的依赖，也是我唯一的担心。
回家吧。。家。真的是让我心正常跳动的地方。。唯一能让我望记一切烦恼的地方。
天啊。。我的家。
我好想就永远呆在这里。。永远高枕无忧。
我好像上瘾了。。。。。。。。

失败者，嘉纬。

2009-04-07T22:15:00.003+08:00

ITsme
im tired. im super tired.
im in pain. im feeling grt pain.
my ankle(s), my knee(s), my shoulder(s), and back....
they are all aching lyk no body's business.
but for my Adiv which is 4trngs away frm me now...
i will go on.
tml, wed again.
6days aft the 100th.
hmm... i ve 2.4, track and bball,
again.
juz so dead. so damn freaking dead.

加油吧！！ i dun ve a choice.

加油！！加油！！

嘉纬，加油！！

2009-04-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

ITsme
this is interesting. i juz went to chk for my competitions schedule. well well. lets see. my first comp will be on monday, 4:15pm..prob ends arnd 7? eh. can forget abt trng bball liao lor. den go home slp, next day, 0830am ve shotput. nice rite? confirm die. den if i lose both. i'll be damn demoralised. den w my sucky emotion, wed, i will be playing the important match against dunman high. if we won tt game, second round is waiting ahead, if we lose. we're as good as gone.
so, i must nt let my track stuff affect my bball stuff. NEVER!!! ok. if i do, pls kick me out of the court. i will be more than glad. coz i cant bear to let all ur hopes down... haix. but at least, the match on friday will be more friendly... against PJC..
this means tt for the entire wk, i will only be in sch for lessons for thursday.
对不起，老师！！我先跟你们道歉！！

my cups

2009-04-06T23:26:00.004+08:00

ITsme
these are cups and medals i've collected..so far. more too go? im nt too sure. im juz old alr. but, i will try my best to finish the journey i ve decided to take up.
sorry ppl, if im abit too stressed up. abit too...inconsiderate?
i kinda think tt u understand me. but, i juz feel so guilty.
lyk, u all did more than me..but yet.
victory, this izt everything.
i guess. to me, this year, even if i dun get a single cup, or a single medal home. im alr the winner.
bcoz, i ve won my limits in physical, and mental, and climbed up to another higher state.
it maybe hard on me now, but, the fruit will be sweet.
at least in my heart, im sure, im the winner.
hope everything will be fine for me. hope things wont be any worse. hope i wont get injured...pray w me.

dots

2009-04-06T00:32:00.001+08:00

ITsme

stressed up potato... ...

jiawei

i hate myself.

im positive

thinking

2009-04-06T00:06:00.005+08:00

ITsme

i gave it a good thought...do they deserve me?
do they care? i dunno.
thinking wad happened all this while.
i thot...maybe its juz my wishful part.

lyk wad the hell.
why do i feel that im seeing them more impt than they're seeing me?
i really wonder, do they deserve me to work so hard for.
or perhaps. i shld juz let go.
maybe i shld nt go the extra mile
making me look stupid, feel stupid.
why do i bother how they feel when they are alone?
when they do not care how i feel when im alone?

i really dunno wad to do.
perhaps i shld cherish those tt cherish me.
kick the ass of those who took me for granted
those tt i once took them so closely to my heart.

they dun deserve me to do my best for them.
i think, only me, deserve myself to do the best for.
coz the reality world is juz so cruel. so unjustified.
i dun see my presence in tt world... ...
go chk it urself.

dun gimme excuses.
i wont accept any reason for all my work to go worthless.
for all my effort to be taken for granted.
all the pain, and tiredness, tt i chose the route and take this up.

i could ve nt done this. track is sufficient for my nice SGC.
the rest is juz for u all.

yet, u all took it for granted. i duno why.

PERHAPS...im juz petty.

why be nice? why be considering?
WHY BE STUPID?

if i let go now, maybe im selfish.
but honestly. tt world aren't for me.
u all wont win bcoz of me
u all wont lose w/o me.
if this is a team
im juz one of the twelve.

afterall... ...
im for individual sports.
im alone.
im loner.

hard to do

2009-04-04T19:45:00.004+08:00

ITsme
i said i wan2 let e blog die...but its hard. coz i dunno who to tok to..esp when im alone at home.
wells. i juz return home frm 'shopping'. i went to buy exercise books for doing math and phy. den wanted to buy contacts, if nt how hell am i suppose to play sports? i ve enuff phobia of face injuries frm wearing specs. haiz. den i oso went to shop for sports shoes.
wells. i officially announce tt im bankrupt. my shoes gave way ytd when i was playing bball, super sian. coz i only wore tt shoes for 3months or less. its spoiled alr. izt bcoz im im too violent, even my shoes lyk dead. haiz..shld b due to my turn too much la. sianx. thank goodness today got sales for sport shoes. and BASKETBALL shoes too. i bought a so-so sport shoes at 70bucks. den i saw my current bball shoes at 35bucks!! i bought it at 70+ la!! omggg!! damn angry.
hais. my bball shoes oso spoiling liao, it gave way 3times alr, and i mend it every time. hoping tt it will last my til my season ends. but, its worrying me for it giving way during game, i will die. if it let me down, i will prob let my team down. so, i wanted to buy another bball shoes, er...40bucks? for a beta one. but...i chk my acct, i only left enuff of daily expense, and sch notes. so, guess i cant buy tt shoes le. hope my shoes wont giv way...i pray hard for tt.
den i wanted to get a new ankle guard..10bucks. sumtimes, w money, u cant get things u need. coz the ankle guard dun ve my size..only be L, i nid M. sian!! i nid to get another ankle guard b4 next trng, my ankle is really weak now..i wear ankle guard to bed!! haha. coz i slp violently. haha.
in short..i hope my shoes wont giv way anymore, coz i cant afford them anymore. good lucks. ><

2009-04-03T01:09:00.002+08:00

ITsme
男人海洋歌词
当我抱着你的时候
窗外风起黄叶飘落
以为是浪漫
原来只是有心在飞走
**不懂情人心里想的
爱就瞎了也迷路了
想摸索什么
摸到了你手心的沉默
最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂
温柔的男人像海洋
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给你飞翔**
repeat **
最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂
温柔的男人像海洋
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给你飞翔

2009-04-03T01:07:00.001+08:00

ITsme
i officially announce this blog will be dead.
copy from zhen.
it will revive earliest by end of a div.
but i will be lyk the blog, the song will cont'd to sing in my life... ..

aft big day

2009-04-03T00:09:00.003+08:00

ITsme
u all knew tt wed, 1st april was big day rite?
i kept myself busy. i dun wan2 think abt him. im really busy. really cant think abt him.
all e while..till..gui pushed me. i fell on my ankle. ouch. at that instant i cried. it hurts. really.
but, i dunno wad hurts. the fool tt gui gave me? or the 100th day? at that moment, i wasn't busy, my mind and body let go of myself. i hope he appeared in front of me. i hope he will help me up, nt jiao lian. perhaps im juz foolish, im juz dumb. bball is nt him. i cant play bball in memorable of him. i cant play bball imagining he's dere, sitting ouside the court watching. the fact is tt, he left. im here.
dumb rite? wats w me. let him see this, he will laugh at me. will he mock at me? perhaps i shud pick myself up, and go.
easy said? ya. now, 103th day. still thinking of him. will it b till the next 100? i dunno. when can i let go? i dunno.
back to now. i shud jump out of my imagination. everything is illusion. dun think too much. nt now, nt future. perhaps in the history. if he's dumb, wats me?
i hope he googled jiawei, YJC. i ve made it easy to find my blog online, ve he? i hope he wont rmb me, and move on. but how much i wish he read my blog and tag me. how i wish i picked my my courage, and emailed him. blueocean977@hotmail.com. i can remember this off my fingertips. i dun nid any reference. tt's juz the stupid me.
im sorry for being e dumb ass. im sorry for liking u. im sorry if im a stress to u. im sorry if im a burden to u. im sorry for loving u. sorry.
heard frm qianyuan tt u ve finished all ur papers ytd..i hope u did well. i hope u will score. i hope i could msg u to ask u how things went. i din wan2 get ur number frm qianyuan. i wan2 msg me. i noe tt u knew tt i ve got auto-mobile. i cant msg cross country. tt's wad i dream abt everynite. waking up, readin the msg u be send me. i dream.
庄生梦蝶。。everything is lyk a dream in e mist. 醒来后，不知是实，是虚。

sry。

2009-04-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

ITsme
hey. i'm sorry. i noe u will read this. and i really do not noe how to let u noe abt this, abt me. seriously, u deserve more than me, im juz another big fat pig. u can always get girls beta than me. perhaps all these all faults of mine, always playing arnd, gossiping...and everything. but i really treated u as my true soulmate, everything tt i told u is the truth. i nv once lied to u. but, this will nt work out, tt way. i dun wish to see u upset and emo over this again, i hope u smile frm the deepest part of ur heart, coz tt's wad i cant do now. u do noe tt until now, i cant let go of him. i dun wish to hurt u, i dun wish to giv u false hope. tt's y i walk away frm u. tt's why i tease u abt other gals. i hope u will find the rite gal. as for now, im nt.
im seriously sorry. dun worry, no one will noe who im i toking abt...its juz u and me. i cant say this in ur face, coz i dun ve the courage to. coz i dun wish to embaress u and me. wad if its juz me tt think too much into this, or wad if u r hurt bcoz of this. neither of it. i wan, NEITHER of it.
u aren't facing a rejection now, coz u din speak a word of it, and i din rejuect u. its juz a clarification.
will u promise nt to be sad??
dun cum near me. im lyk 刺猬。。。porcupine, the nearer u cum to me, the more u will get injured. i will spike u out of natural reaction, its nt tt i wan2 hurt u, its nt tt u r attacking me. stay a dist away frm me? tt's wad i will say. coz any closer, i will shoot off. i will ignore. i will be hostile. but i hope tt we will still b friends,
就如卡沙巴王子说的。。我要以笑容来担心你，而不是皱着眉头。
总而言之，对不起。我还是无法将他忘怀。

big day

2009-04-01T00:07:00.006+08:00

ITsme
　　today is big day. today jiawei wants to go blood donation. but she's worried. coz, she ve 2.4time in the morning, track trng and bball trng in the noon. will she be able to survive thru w the lacking of a bag of blood in her body?
　　today is big day. today jiawei celebrates the 100th day of his departure. the 100th day. proving tt she can live on without him. can she? the first 100 is to prove she can live on, the next 100 is to try forget him. the next 100 is to be back to herself. one year i hope i can forget him, i hope i can move on. i hope i can be me.
　　today is big day. today jiawei worries for her GP essay. if she doesnt do well, she wil die. she will stress, she will cry. but wad can she do? read content notes? but tt's so not all.

TODAY JIAWEI JUST WANTS HIM... ..

haiz. dun believe wad i say, k?

coz today is a big day. today is aprils fool!! so...all of the above, are juz jokes of the day!!
if u wan more jokes frm me!! haha. u will get it frm me!! muahahahaaa!!

tired

2009-03-29T15:52:00.003+08:00

ITsme
hihi!! i juz woke up frm slpg. lyk duh. woke up, nt slpg, den dreaming la. no diff. haha!! wells. this morning went to 扫墓。。amory so cute...but so可怜。。she la..here itchy, dere itchy..haiz. den i see le heart pain xia. haiz. hope she'll recover soon. another thing is tt..today damn 不爽！although amory really v cute and lunch is really good. but there's this fox thingy arnd. damn idiot! omggg. fox spirit!! help!! ><. idiotic! dun tok abt her la. ytd juz came back frm camp excel..fun and boring. wells. but i really got a good time w those b-ballers. esp the gals. we chat till we hrs b4 we decided to go to bed. muahaha..and tt vicky ah. she juz cant stop laughing at me..and i cant stop laughing at how she laugh. omg. haha hmm...thru this camp, i oso ve a few new friends. lyk..richie, huayao, terence, derick, yancheng...eh. cant rmb le. oh. benjamin and vince? haha. tt's abt all i think. ohh..i really think nowadays boys ah...all KO damn fast la. abit they slp earlier than us..den wake up abt the same time. but aft camp, they all KO and go home liao. wells. j1gals oso ko. haha. only crazy j2gals and j1boys hiong play bball..haha. damn funny. juz learnt tt j1 boys ve got extreme cases xia. either irritatingly dao. or really is 笑到肚爆！！ haha. haiya. i go pack room le...so damn messy. and i so damn bored. life sucks la. 陪我整理房间啦！！ ok...next time i disturb zhen ask her cum pei me!! muahahahaha!! so good to ve zhen and chia..can disturb!! muahaha!! u two! dun bully me. dun poke or pour alcohol on my wound...sounds so threatening. ><

2009-03-26T18:27:00.001+08:00

ITsme
haha. this happen to be my knee. haha.. pain la!! dun poke!
u noe...i juz took out the bandage thing. den the sticky thing is lyk totally stick on it. ouch la! pull out!! i hope i juz din nid to do tt!! omggg!! hate it! dun lyk. u wan2 try? haha. but hor..i think see frm here lyk nt v pain lehx. got time, i show u e real freshg one. ppl always says tt freshness is the best rite?! haha.
linglan to blog abt her...wad shud i blog abt? but..today really had good time w her in sch, we were lyk damcing along to NOBODY..she damn cute. dance dance clap clap. haha. dance is i add de la. haha..
tml got camp excel. but my leg liddat...and my bag ve nt pack yet 超sian de lor!! die la!

yeah!

2009-03-26T18:05:00.003+08:00

ITsme
yeah!! today i 发笑！haha..see the map beside, those underline in green, are the stops i walked. those tt i took bus is in blue. haha. so fun!! but hor...shirlyn saw me frm the bus, she thot i emo lor. wells. if its sum1 else, i may think tt person oso emo. haha. damn lame. den jiaqi saw me frm the train..haha. she say i wasting time. which is quite true. lolx. linglan ask me to take bus too. but i got walking addiction la. i love walkin and running..lyk leisure la. dun lyk competitive ones. wells. i think walking make me feel so.....alive? ask me stone dere. might as well kill me.
but seriously ah. juz now i damn scared..i wanted to walk all the way home de lor. but, LIGHTING!! and THUNDER!! so scared...omggggg. coz im alr at the expressway. so i think i beta take a bus. otherwise, i may die on my way home. bad!!
but the walk is really fun. feel free to join me next time, k? hmm...i next aim, walk throughout!! haha.

sian

2009-03-26T00:31:00.003+08:00

ITsme
hihi!! today is the last day of my blog test..hmm or to say, tml?? coz i still ve GP tml. and wad am i doin now?! blogging at 12midnight. sian riteS!! omggggg.
today i did phy paper and CLL. phy was lyk omggggggggg!!!
i finish the paper lyk 20mins b4 the time. den i was quite happy w myself...but i calculated the score tt i confirm can get correct de...wah sah!! only 30+ marks..我傻眼！！ was lyk shock!! den i flip to front page..den i realise tt the paper was over 60..CHEY!!! 天啊！！
haiz. den me and linglan when out to mit jiaqi peggy and jiayun...den i fell down. wan2 noe the details. go read linglan's livejournal. she gave details and added effects!! haha (><)!! wells. w my half numb and still bleeding leg, aft mr sarav rescue..i went to do CLL paper.. the paper out of 8Questions, i lyk do 4Qs only!! omg! ok la. quite expected, coz i din study for cll. i pia for phy only. but hor..realise, i din study finish all the topics for phy too. hmm. only touch on sum topics. wells. if i can score for this block test tt i din study for. den im quite sure tt i can stay for J2. but if i really get lyki single digit or so. wells....i may juz ve to bear apart w my dear friends, and go back to J1..and i reconsider the fact tt i wan2 cont'd w my CLL..it really sucks. nt the part of lit. the part..MY stupid teacher, and his stupid perspective. so damn him! omgg!! he juz easily wash off the determination i ve for chi lit! u noe wad. i still LOVE CHINESE!! I JUZ THINK TT CHINESE IS DAMN FREAKING COOL!!!! and of coz. i love the histiry behind it. noe wad. i love chinese lit too. everything is juz so fine. other than him. wtf! ok. chill for now. i think its getting late..and why no one is replying my msn!! omg. im so bored. i thot tonite aft the last day of content base block test, can play and hiong abit. but can see...ppl are juz so worn out alr. i wan2 tok crap. my ppl are juz nt replying. ok. i announced: " IM SAD!!!" haiz. 不管了啦！！ i go kajiao my mummy. she wan2 tell me wad she did today!! haha. wells. hope its interesting~ yeah! haha. hmm...ya. i wan2 train for A'div. but my knee really pain. now..still bleeding. coz i juz bathe...and juz clean my wound..and juz put on new bandage. OUCH!!! gosh. hope sum1 is dere for me..hor linglan. hahaa. *hints. kkz nites!! luv u all!! haha sounds familiar? chk e url. haha!! <3 <3<3!! Muacks!
6more days to 100th... ..
do i really miss him?
i dunno. hais

math over

2009-03-23T13:04:00.002+08:00

ITsme
yea. math juz ended. now at home..eating lunch box. how i miss mummy's food. gosh. this is super unhealthy!!
wells. im giving a miss to the b-boys game l8r against NYJC. feel so guilty. but im so sick. stupid math paper, make me sit under the air con. first, i cant conc on my paper, second, it seriously worsen my condition!!
can b bothered anymore. guess aft lunch, i will ve to get back to work. CLL and Phy on wed.
加油~！！haha. now im slacking!!
爱就宅一起！！ yeah manns!!
good luck B-Boys!! KAMPATEH!! 加油！！<3!!

miss him

2009-03-22T21:32:00.002+08:00

ITsme
still doing math now. tml is the block test.
Math. this is e subject i hate. it all started frm this starting of the yr. frm 10thJan.
bcoz of math. he left. i rmb a statement he always say...:
“你不要再做数学了。管管其它科目吧！不然，无论你的数学再好，你还是会留级的。”
izt true tt wad u say, will cum true on u? at least for this. i believe so.
90 days...it ve been 90 days since tt thursday tt he left in the morning at 8. the plane flew.
i wonder how is he now. guess is not about L, its juz so use to ve him arnd, so use to ve sum1 lyk him..so use to all those.
i hate this. i hate these 90 days. i ve nt been much of myself. i ve been doing things i dun use to do.
i ve been thinking about irrelevant things tt i dun use to distract myself w..
wad happened? listening to 男人海洋 by 周传雄。。温柔的男人像海洋。
its juz so not him. or to say. its too him? i dunno. i really do not noe. juz confused.
i hate math, i hate phy, i hate CLL, i hate econs.
he failed math, i took phy sub on the day he did math paper.
we toked alot on CLL in the past, all the chatterings...i miss them.
we had fun econs lessons tgt...everytime, i look forward to the next lesson...
every subject i do, i miss him. is this y i dun wan2 touch these stuffs anymore?
i think its juz excuses.

i juz cant b me anymore.

personality test

2009-03-20T20:37:00.003+08:00

ITsme
I did the test that Ren Zhi put in his blog. I was so bored.. Wells. i think its quite accurate.
What do u think? This is the results they gave me:DD

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

:(

2009-03-20T18:37:00.002+08:00

ITsme

:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

im juz sad today. im along at home, all alone. haha. sick. visit a doc. took sum medicine, which of all looks so familiar. i ve tried them before. then the doc tell me tt he will gimme stronger medicine. im i dying? and i still ve still mug my heart out before my death... ..
im using the second box of my tissue..and my nose seems to ve more to go.

How do i handle my Block test?
How do i handle my Basketball?
How do i handle my Javelin and Shot Put?

hh

2009-03-19T22:36:00.001+08:00

ITsme

JIA WEI'S WORLD WELCOMES ONLY MUGGERS!!!!

...

2009-03-19T22:33:00.002+08:00

ITsme
many things happened today. i wan2 thx chia. i wan2 thank my mum. and i wan2 thank alot other ppl. but i wan2 kill myself and pull out my nose too!! it totally sucks. its lyk malfunctioning, and my throat is on the strike w it!! kill me manns. haha.
ya. i got to study for block le. byess!! good luck to all my readers!!
KAMPATEH!!

sian..again.

2009-03-19T07:42:00.002+08:00

ITsme
haiz. ppl!! cum my house~! coz im alone at home, and im sick. i cant go out. cum la cum la.
today was suppose to lib study de. though e lib is opp my house, closest to me liao. but cannot take it la. my fever is killing me. i cant go out :(. sadddd.
im suppose to study. but my flu is nt helping. and cough is making it worse. my fever is destroying my plans. shud i juz lie down and rest, till my illness recover? till my block test is here. till i fail my block test. till i die.
JUST KILL ME!!! PLEASEEE!! really sucks to b alone. gosh. knowing me, u noe tt i cant survive alone. i can dun eat dun drink. as long as im w my friends, i will b lyk in heaven!! now i cant go to heaven. make my house the heaven pls. >.<
dun wan2 type liao. damn sad.
i go search for 江语晨's songs. den go mugg..if i dun die off half way la. hahaa.
kampateh!

yo zhen!!

2009-03-19T07:40:00.002+08:00

ITsme
hey zhen!! thx for e lyrics!! haha!! so swt of u!! thx for coming to my house for visiting!! thank you!! ohh. u wan tigger? cum cum. cum my house take. den i will lock u in again. hehe

2009-03-19T02:03:00.002+08:00

~~ITsme~~ ITsZHENYING :D

jia's personal IT helper has added music to her blog, INSOMNIA by CRAIG DAVID :)

here for the lyrics:
I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up
Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

hope jia jia is feeling okay from her illness :D
p.s to jia! GO TAG MY BLOG

yeah.

2009-03-18T17:13:00.002+08:00

ITsme
oh one more thing!! so happy. i ve confirm sth. its nt tt kinda lyk. i confirm plus swear. its juz friends!! haha! >.O!!

SIAN!!

2009-03-18T17:02:00.002+08:00

ITsme
today phy lesson starts at 8, but i overslpt. den msg mr sim tell him. haha. i was dere arnd 0825? lolx. damn late. den the lesson ended arnd 12. haix. i so sian. my fever went off in the morning, and it came back arnd 10+. wells. ignores my fever. den LL and me walk to mrt, whr i met rezhi. juz pei him go buy contact lens stuffs and teach him how to wear lor. DUN THINK TOO MUCH!! no matter who the person is, i oso wil accompany the person go buy and teach one ok! so, LL, dun make noise!! wells, i oso needed to buy contacts. my daily gg to finish alr. damn sian. and my bank no more money liao. can die of starvation soon. JIE JIE!! JIU MING AH!!
ya lor. he damn smart, took 1hr to wear contacts. i almost fell aslp la!! we ran all over the place to look for a place whr we can both go in, and got mirror. haiz. PATHETICALLY!! we ended up at the handicap toilet of morthpoint extention, at 2nd floor. haa. stone dere for lyk almost 1hr la!! PEK CHEEG!! haiz.
now im at home, w all my teammates in sch, playing against RGS..i really wan2 play. but fever burn burn, i faint faint. wad can i do. i try liao. went to sch arnd 3+ den did a few shooting, den cannot TAH HAN..feel so giddy. so, i decided to go home lor. now. i gg to bathe, den eat paracetomol den go and slp. l8r wake up study. haha. kampateh!!

kill me!!

2009-03-17T19:42:00.004+08:00

ITsme
yo manns! tdy nt bad la. went to mit up w MI ppl, they still tok alot. but i headache la. dunno how to tok liao. sit dere and shuddup. haha. den i went home early to study. lyk suppose to b studying NOW!! tml nid to hand-in phy stuff, and go for phy tutorial. >.<
gosh. i wish im fine. wth, im having fever now. lets see. juz now was 37.7, now is 38.1..haha. nice one la. hits bull eyes. no one at home pei me, my fever contd to rise, i contd to study. hope l8r can slp early and tml everything will b back to normal. smart decision to nt go play bball w sah and all today. if nt, i sure KO!! haha. i go do work le. l8r chia and zhen coming? i dunno lehx. but hope they wont get infected. oops.
good luck for my game w RGS tml!! KO!! haha. trash them manns!

2009-03-17T00:50:00.004+08:00

i look ugly here. but my darling will always be my darling!! haha!!

foto

2009-03-17T00:47:00.002+08:00

223 F4!! haha, saykiong FAN CLUB!! haha!!

CVD!!

2009-03-16T23:28:00.002+08:00

ITsme
yo manns. this is lyk damn late post. CVD was sat, now is alr monday!! haha. CVD was lyk damn fun. much beta than wad i thot it will be. and i muz really thx ll for it!! haha. she la. dunked me, and i dunked her too!! den we both damn wet!! joke of the day is tt i din release the ball b4 she fell in, and funnier is tt the ball din touch the board, and i fell in too!! haha! we too heavy la! haha.
this is proven when the principal was getting dunked. she sat dere, w 4boys beneath, supportin her weight. otherwise, she would ve fell in b4 the ball hit the board! funnier was tt she go in, cant cum out. nt her fault la. aftall, she's nt v tall. can understand. hehe. oh. i dunked richie and pras and alot of J1 juniors!! haha. but hor. got a grp of stupid ppl dun wan2 let me dunk!! for example, jeremy, saykiong, shun, and many more!! stupid!! haha. nowadays gals are more on than man la!! terrible!
wells. the duty at store was fun too. got alot of kids, and LL is lyk kids magnet la! she v ATTRACTIVE!! hahaa. so cute. wells. kids juz get scare away frm me. lols. but its ok. coz parents are attracted to me.. i psycho parents to make their children play our game, or otherwise, they will play on their own. heez. den the camera man came!! he quite cute. hold camera and play our game, den i dunno how to tok to him, coz, really v weird. lyk can cheer for kids, how to cheer for him la. den even if he knocks down cans, wad present to giv him.?? giv LL to him. haha!! LL beta dun see this. hee
den aft tt we went to party world!! got LL me Pris peg, tong yuan kiong and long. haha. super funny!! the guys can sing, but the tempo abit out. if correct tempo, they all nt bad one lor!! tt kiong ah!! thru out e nite, nv touch the mic at all la!! LL and me, though is SKFC de..oso cant do anything. lolx. but now, at least he acknowledge us!! president, and secretary. haha.
i tink they can make up 223 F4!! haha. let me post their 帅爆的照片！！ l8r l8r.. haha
den sunday was so boring in comparison. wells. monday, today. i went for track trng and bball trng. so tiring. cant imagine if the comp fall on e same day, i will die ba. oh. nt bad leh my throws, so long nv throw, still got lyk 7m far. ok, close. b4 i go for comp, muz at least 8m to 9. those ppl out dere, anyhow oso 10m de lor. i can go die liao lor. haha. i still got jav. i really muz buck up liao. jia you jia you jia you!! KAMPATEH!! haha.
now lookin forward to tml's PAE gatherin, hope jared will cum!! haha. hot and cute. haha. he juz told me he still single and available. haha. cant believe no one wants him!! or, he wanted no one?! haha. hope to see tt cute mugger tml!! heez. i go slp le.
fever, cough, throat inflammation, flu; jiawei>.<

happy day!!

2009-03-14T00:20:00.002+08:00

ITsme
haiz. today was generally a happy day for me!! coz i had loads of fun and manage to stay thru all the lessons, except for math. and u noe wad? math was the worst subject of today. coz of my stupid sitting partner. kaoz. im so much fatter and build than u. how did u ever take up more space than me. lyk wad duh. haix u write..can dun cover lyk 40% of my table space. u noe even LL noe my face damn black alr, u still liddat. ok lor. fine. so nt gg to sit w u agn. summore, i realised, i will fall aslp sitting beside u! u noe wad. i oso heard abt how distracting and how u cont'd writing even when cher says pen down. u noe wad. all of us hope tt u will cont'd doing tt, till A's, and get kik.
wdv.
but other than tt. today was quite fine, i falied my cLL, but i learnt e reason whyi failed. haiz. CLL is getting me to no whr, and its getting so MEANINGLESS!! *sigh!
we prepared for tml CVD today. and my entire class lyk gg crazy. so fun!! and thru e co-operation, we manage to get everything done by break:) haha.. so爽！！ coz me and LL was playing bball, and everyone else was super busy w their setting up of boothe. hehe. only if he is still in my class, tml will b lyk heaven. haha.
den i we went 755 play. hehe. they saw celtic7. but i din. lol. i was in sch playing bball, one on one. haha, i score quite abit lor. and my foul throw pt, i ve 60% accuracy. however, my underbasket got worse. bad bad.
very tired here. watching 霹雳MIT, half epo, doin charcoal mask, den another half epo, i doin wine mask. den i gg slp le. tml got to go sch early, and get ready for stupid funfair. haiz. nites!!
enjoy holiday!!

stupid

2009-03-10T21:43:00.001+08:00

ITsme
I HATE YOU!! STUPID!! DUN COME DISTURB ME!! PLEASE!!
YOU, YES YOU!! THE ONE READING THIS. IF U FEEL ANY GUILTY FOR DISTURBING ME, YES, ITS YOU!!! DUN SCREAM AT ME EVER AGAIN!!
*cries>.<

so tiring... ..

2009-03-10T21:20:00.002+08:00

ITsme
so tired. i wan2 die liao..i wan2 slp. i wan slp. i wan2 slp. SLEEP is my DREAM!! nt dream in my sleep. yawnz. gosh. haiz. i guess i ve flunk my econs my bock paper today. coz i din study this morning when i woke up, i soooo tired. now, i nt only wan2 slp..i oso wan2 do math. oso wan2 do vocab and do CLL...
tomorrow. will be another tiring day for me. PE in the morning, follow 1.5hour of math, 1.5hr CLL, and 1.5 hr GP. gosh. 1510 end sch, 1530 track trng!! ahhh!! following, i will have basketball training at 5!! oh no!!

i dun wan2 eat liao..but so much of food is left..!! ahh!!

sunday, die.

2009-03-08T22:42:00.002+08:00

ITsme
oh my god. im left w alot homework!! lets list ah...
Phy: EM tut & ws. EMI tut. NYJC paper 1&2.
Econs: Case study. BLOCK TEST!!
Math: complex tut; 1.1, 1.2, 1.3 & 1.4. vector TEST!!
CLL: 预备课上题目，海魂，雪山飞狐，周记。
GP: vocab... ..?!?!?!
OH MY GOD!!! !! !

pain pain!!

2009-03-07T00:10:00.004+08:00

ITsme
i wan2 die liao la!! left knee dying. right ankle dead. im in stupid intense pain!! can juz remove my leg?!?! i damn sadden by my own legs...:(
today we played against IJC.. though we won. but heard frm gui tt coach say, a standard team shud b able to beat them by 30-40s. but we only won lyk 20? nt v considered a standard team hor. how? i feel so damn freaking bad. i got bad passes, bad aiming, bad attitude, and worse of all, bad character!!..coz im really pissed!! i was lyk damn freaking empty. but tt stupid gal, juz dun wan2 pass the ball to me. i noe 你们的shooting damn zai la! but u got 2 defender, still wan2 shoot, anyhow hit board, den anyhow rebound, how hell u expect me to get tt throw?! hai.
but afterall, i think ur shootin really nt bad, juz tt u shud try look arnd more for open ppl. liddat can ve beta team work too. try, k? ok. u r nt reading this. lols.
i dun wan2 say liao. my legs kiling me!! i wan2 go ice it, den slp. oh ya!! b4 i forgot!! my bball shoes spoiled today!! i damn scared to run lor!! scared l8r i land on the wrong side of the shoe, den fall down. WTH!!
and tt stupid jitao!! he left 4kg of weights w me!! wad hell la!! i nid to bring all over la! and the best thing is tt he took my year book, and we dun ve each other's number!! gosh.
im really dying alr... ppl.
good nite!! LOV YOU!!

out w vinnie.. ..

2009-03-05T21:28:00.004+08:00

ITsme
today was studying at amk lib..den vinnie came along..yea. with chips!! haha. see the first pic? tt's e couple sitting outside the lib eating. lolx. so poor thing..why sit outside lib?!?! act romantic huh? lol. oops. no offence.

oh..the next pic is the food we ate at KFC..yea!! so filling.
饱死了！！哈哈！！

so sorry!!

2009-03-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

ITsme
haiz. how could i miss shunyu's birthday?? haiz. not suppose to miss any of my friend's birthday de. how could i?! so sorry!!
today, in sch..i damn sian. assembly was boring. gp was boring. econs was scary. CLL was tiring. break was rushing. phy was boring. break was ok. gp was sucky. wdv.
i hate today. totally suck!! totally hate it.
who can make my day??

damn!

2009-03-04T22:44:00.004+08:00

ITsme
ytd was fantastic. i was damn bored. and damn angry w myself for screwing up my SPA. gosh. wad hell happened.. but i cant let this hinder me. MOVE ON dude! i dunno wad to say now. all in my mind is tt stupid person.
gosh. i always thot tt giving presents, and taking at back will happen in tv serial. who knows. it happens in real life too. im so sick of it. u r nt cher, dun gimme datelines. i pampered u last time, letting u decide, coz i love u dearly as friend, as sister, as my soulmate. but its no longer true. so, stop ur bullshit. i will return u ur stuffs. coz they are no longer important to me.
i hate scolding ppl. and ppl who noe me, will not im nt so easily annoyed, in such serious extend. can u shuddup!! u pest!
ok enough. im nt gg to cont'd. and if u sees this. i say thank you for reading my blog. if u dun, which i think u wont, i say too bad. coz i really DETEST you, and SYMPATISE you.
note: YOU, and ONLY you. pls dun pull ur TWEENIE into the story.
she maybe against me, but im nt against her.

monday...grey?

2009-03-02T20:27:00.003+08:00

ITsme
rain rain go away..cum again another day...
gosh. today we went to NYJC for match. and it rained so heavily. so it was called off. wells, i was suppose to mit zhen de. but apparently, i cant find her. and the best is tt i forgot to bring my fone out today. so..din mit her. despite tt. i saw yijia and chuyan. had quite a good time.
the team wanted to go sengkang. nt all, shell yiling sah and jess. but pras one statement, reminded me abt my priority, and oso the crap i ve been doin. so i went home str.:) rite decision to make. though i really feel bad towards them,and tt i feel down nt playing. but..来日方长。will ve chance to play agn de:) so i dun nid so sad. tml got phy spa. today beta practice more. haha
oh ya!! toking abt phy. i slpt in phy lect today, and hor..mrsim the face super black!! gosh. i din meant it. im really trying. i din slp in all my tutorials today. im really trying!! but i nid to try HARDER!! MUCH HARDER!!
haha. now eating 稀粥。。thinkin tt the boys are at chomp chomp. i really damn sian dao!! but well. wad can i do. i so stupid, i dun deserve such enjoyment. compare to renzhi, the top10 frm peirce, chinyang, alvin, shaowei..all from 202 de. and many many other ppl...im juz dumb. so, 今天的愚笨，由明天的努力弥补。 hee.
go study le. BYES!!

shell's 生日礼物！！

2009-03-01T08:36:00.002+08:00

ITSme
this is shell's bday present. hope she lyks it!! coz i loved it!! i think its nice. inside ve letter and a strand of bells. wad do u think? haha. most imptly is she lyk lor. coz its her present wad. if she dun lyk, i lyk, oso no pt. haiz. happy birthday!!
but hor, today i nt mtg her lehx. today mtg zhen chia and yanni. so long din see them.. miss miss. hope yanni and me wont get affected by jenny. sian.
damn sian. more sian. most sian. (*crys):'(

被骗钱！！

2009-03-01T08:22:00.003+08:00

ITsme
oh my oh my..look at e amt of it this cup of honey milk tea!! i drank lyk 5mouthful, den no more liao. it cost me $1.20 la!! wth. hais damn sad.
i bought this aft spliting ways w LL, on the way home frm stupid phy spa extra lesson on sch. make me wake up damn early juz to go sch to copy stuff. but hor. i muz say, MR SIM is super nice. coz he juz book out frm re-service on friday, den extra lesson on sat morning. muz be tiring for him, and all juz coz our spa is next wk. nice rite. 人真好！！
haix. was suppose to mit shell, pras and abby at nite to celebrate shells birthday!! which is TODAY!! but din mit lehx. push frm AMK to YISHUN to SENGKANG. further and further away. how to go? initially, only can go, if at AMK. but they say wan 755, or yishun, den ok lor. was thinking tt i can walk back at nite still. so shld b fine. den SK?! gosh. big noNO. haix. coz my mum slp le. den i cant ask her for permission, den i stil coughing, fevering and puking. how to go. and nt forgetting the homework load i ve. SORRY SHELL！！对不起！！

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2009-02-27T17:45:00.002+08:00

ITsme
reproach.
cough-> vomit.
throat infection-> fever.
terrible jiawei.
i hate her.

i hate this wk!!

2009-02-27T17:35:00.004+08:00

ITsme
this wk is my worst wk ever!! i din go sch for lyk 3 out of 5days. i hate myself for doing it. and i dunno why..i can juz let my sickness b in my way, and nt go sch.
wad the hell am i thinking? i muz buck up! nit only tokin abt studies. but most imptly, is the character that i ve and the bad habits i have.
i muz change!! change to sumone beta!! much more beta!!
next wk onwards!! i muz go sch everyday..and wake up at 6..even b4 laoda call me!!
i muz b independent!! denpending on myself to wake up, depending on myself to b on time in sch. and dependeng on myself for studies.
I MUST NOT FALL ASLEEP IN CLASS ANYMORE!! I MUST NOT!!
NOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNOＮＯNO!!
KAMPATEH!! 加油！！ ALL THE BEST!!