this suck

ITsme
yesterday was my birthday.
i love my fwens more than my family. but i love my family more than my friends.
happy.
jess helped me get almost a most wonderful birthday nite, at kumo's house full w my fav ppl.
jess evelyn chinyang alvin jeremy shouheng not forgetting cute juniors dickson jerome and sherman.
sad.
i rushed home to the next morning to bake cake for my brithday. i did it willingly w passion.
but apparently i get more groaning than praises from my mum. it hurts.
wad my sis my bro says is not as impt. the one i love most made e impact.
perhaps, i juz shud nt love her as much.

on my bday. my mum ask me out w her my bro and his children. to buy my bro and his children stuff. but isnt it my birthday?? such irony. so she is juz using the name of my birthday to see them and shop w them. wad abt me?? she expects me to baby sit his children. izt me being chidish and over sensitive.

i hate my mum. i hate my bro. not coz they are my family, not coz they arent nice ppl, but juz tt im taken too much for granted.

this family i had, screwed up my day, the day i hope tt i will be happy and all.
but it din seems too true now. i noe this will happen, i was prepared for it, but i still cant take it. i juz cant take it, being insignificant in my family, in my circle of friends, where ever i am, wdv im doin. wad can change this.

when is my death approaching?? i want no more or crap...