hard to do

ITsme
i said i wan2 let e blog die...but its hard. coz i dunno who to tok to..esp when im alone at home.
wells. i juz return home frm 'shopping'. i went to buy exercise books for doing math and phy. den wanted to buy contacts, if nt how hell am i suppose to play sports? i ve enuff phobia of face injuries frm wearing specs. haiz. den i oso went to shop for sports shoes.
wells. i officially announce tt im bankrupt. my shoes gave way ytd when i was playing bball, super sian. coz i only wore tt shoes for 3months or less. its spoiled alr. izt bcoz im im too violent, even my shoes lyk dead. haiz..shld b due to my turn too much la. sianx. thank goodness today got sales for sport shoes. and BASKETBALL shoes too. i bought a so-so sport shoes at 70bucks. den i saw my current bball shoes at 35bucks!! i bought it at 70+ la!! omggg!! damn angry.
hais. my bball shoes oso spoiling liao, it gave way 3times alr, and i mend it every time. hoping tt it will last my til my season ends. but, its worrying me for it giving way during game, i will die. if it let me down, i will prob let my team down. so, i wanted to buy another bball shoes, er...40bucks? for a beta one. but...i chk my acct, i only left enuff of daily expense, and sch notes. so, guess i cant buy tt shoes le. hope my shoes wont giv way...i pray hard for tt.
den i wanted to get a new ankle guard..10bucks. sumtimes, w money, u cant get things u need. coz the ankle guard dun ve my size..only be L, i nid M. sian!! i nid to get another ankle guard b4 next trng, my ankle is really weak now..i wear ankle guard to bed!! haha. coz i slp violently. haha.
in short..i hope my shoes wont giv way anymore, coz i cant afford them anymore. good lucks. ><

ITsme
男人海洋歌词
当我抱着你的时候
窗外风起黄叶飘落
以为是浪漫
原来只是有心在飞走
**不懂情人心里想的
爱就瞎了也迷路了
想摸索什么
摸到了你手心的沉默
最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂
温柔的男人像海洋
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给你飞翔**
repeat **
最痴情的男人像海洋
爱在风暴里逞强
苦还是风平浪静的模样
卷起了依恋那么长
挥手目送你启航
到你觉得我给不了的天堂
温柔的男人像海洋
爱在关键时隐藏
而心酸汇集都敞开胸膛
做远远看护的月光
不做阻挡你的墙
我的爱是折下自己的翅膀
送给你飞翔

ITsme
i officially announce this blog will be dead.
copy from zhen.
it will revive earliest by end of a div.
but i will be lyk the blog, the song will cont'd to sing in my life... ..

aft big day

ITsme
u all knew tt wed, 1st april was big day rite?
i kept myself busy. i dun wan2 think abt him. im really busy. really cant think abt him.
all e while..till..gui pushed me. i fell on my ankle. ouch. at that instant i cried. it hurts. really.
but, i dunno wad hurts. the fool tt gui gave me? or the 100th day? at that moment, i wasn't busy, my mind and body let go of myself. i hope he appeared in front of me. i hope he will help me up, nt jiao lian. perhaps im juz foolish, im juz dumb. bball is nt him. i cant play bball in memorable of him. i cant play bball imagining he's dere, sitting ouside the court watching. the fact is tt, he left. im here.
dumb rite? wats w me. let him see this, he will laugh at me. will he mock at me? perhaps i shud pick myself up, and go.
easy said? ya. now, 103th day. still thinking of him. will it b till the next 100? i dunno. when can i let go? i dunno.
back to now. i shud jump out of my imagination. everything is illusion. dun think too much. nt now, nt future. perhaps in the history. if he's dumb, wats me?
i hope he googled jiawei, YJC. i ve made it easy to find my blog online, ve he? i hope he wont rmb me, and move on. but how much i wish he read my blog and tag me. how i wish i picked my my courage, and emailed him. blueocean977@hotmail.com. i can remember this off my fingertips. i dun nid any reference. tt's juz the stupid me.
im sorry for being e dumb ass. im sorry for liking u. im sorry if im a stress to u. im sorry if im a burden to u. im sorry for loving u. sorry.
heard frm qianyuan tt u ve finished all ur papers ytd..i hope u did well. i hope u will score. i hope i could msg u to ask u how things went. i din wan2 get ur number frm qianyuan. i wan2 msg me. i noe tt u knew tt i ve got auto-mobile. i cant msg cross country. tt's wad i dream abt everynite. waking up, readin the msg u be send me. i dream.
庄生梦蝶。。everything is lyk a dream in e mist. 醒来后，不知是实，是虚。

sry。

ITsme
hey. i'm sorry. i noe u will read this. and i really do not noe how to let u noe abt this, abt me. seriously, u deserve more than me, im juz another big fat pig. u can always get girls beta than me. perhaps all these all faults of mine, always playing arnd, gossiping...and everything. but i really treated u as my true soulmate, everything tt i told u is the truth. i nv once lied to u. but, this will nt work out, tt way. i dun wish to see u upset and emo over this again, i hope u smile frm the deepest part of ur heart, coz tt's wad i cant do now. u do noe tt until now, i cant let go of him. i dun wish to hurt u, i dun wish to giv u false hope. tt's y i walk away frm u. tt's why i tease u abt other gals. i hope u will find the rite gal. as for now, im nt.
im seriously sorry. dun worry, no one will noe who im i toking abt...its juz u and me. i cant say this in ur face, coz i dun ve the courage to. coz i dun wish to embaress u and me. wad if its juz me tt think too much into this, or wad if u r hurt bcoz of this. neither of it. i wan, NEITHER of it.
u aren't facing a rejection now, coz u din speak a word of it, and i din rejuect u. its juz a clarification.
will u promise nt to be sad??
dun cum near me. im lyk 刺猬。。。porcupine, the nearer u cum to me, the more u will get injured. i will spike u out of natural reaction, its nt tt i wan2 hurt u, its nt tt u r attacking me. stay a dist away frm me? tt's wad i will say. coz any closer, i will shoot off. i will ignore. i will be hostile. but i hope tt we will still b friends,
就如卡沙巴王子说的。。我要以笑容来担心你，而不是皱着眉头。
总而言之，对不起。 我还是无法将他忘怀。

big day

ITsme
　　today is big day. today jiawei wants to go blood donation. but she's worried. coz, she ve 2.4time in the morning, track trng and bball trng in the noon. will she be able to survive thru w the lacking of a bag of blood in her body?
　　today is big day. today jiawei celebrates the 100th day of his departure. the 100th day. proving tt she can live on without him. can she? the first 100 is to prove she can live on, the next 100 is to try forget him. the next 100 is to be back to herself. one year i hope i can forget him, i hope i can move on. i hope i can be me.
　　today is big day. today jiawei worries for her GP essay. if she doesnt do well, she wil die. she will stress, she will cry. but wad can she do? read content notes? but tt's so not all.

TODAY JIAWEI JUST WANTS HIM... ..

haiz. dun believe wad i say, k?

coz today is a big day. today is aprils fool!! so...all of the above, are juz jokes of the day!!
if u wan more jokes frm me!! haha. u will get it frm me!! muahahahaaa!!

tired

ITsme
hihi!! i juz woke up frm slpg. lyk duh. woke up, nt slpg, den dreaming la. no diff. haha!! wells. this morning went to 扫墓。。amory so cute...but so可怜。。she la..here itchy, dere itchy..haiz. den i see le heart pain xia. haiz. hope she'll recover soon. another thing is tt..today damn 不爽！although amory really v cute and lunch is really good. but there's this fox thingy arnd. damn idiot! omggg. fox spirit!! help!! ><. idiotic! dun tok abt her la. ytd juz came back frm camp excel..fun and boring. wells. but i really got a good time w those b-ballers. esp the gals. we chat till we hrs b4 we decided to go to bed. muahaha..and tt vicky ah. she juz cant stop laughing at me..and i cant stop laughing at how she laugh. omg. haha hmm...thru this camp, i oso ve a few new friends. lyk..richie, huayao, terence, derick, yancheng...eh. cant rmb le. oh. benjamin and vince? haha. tt's abt all i think. ohh..i really think nowadays boys ah...all KO damn fast la. abit they slp earlier than us..den wake up abt the same time. but aft camp, they all KO and go home liao. wells. j1gals oso ko. haha. only crazy j2gals and j1boys hiong play bball..haha. damn funny. juz learnt tt j1 boys ve got extreme cases xia. either irritatingly dao. or really is 笑到肚爆！！ haha. haiya. i go pack room le...so damn messy. and i so damn bored. life sucks la. 陪我整理房间啦！！ ok...next time i disturb zhen ask her cum pei me!! muahahahaha!! so good to ve zhen and chia..can disturb!! muahaha!! u two! dun bully me. dun poke or pour alcohol on my wound...sounds so threatening. ><